Strange morning

ok, so apparently watching 'Supernatural' just before going to sleep is not that good of an idea. Not that I had nightmares or something, naaah. It was just a little bit scary to actually lay in my bed until I fell asleep. Thank God (or rather my Friend who gave him to me) for Brad!
Though I have no idea how the hell did I sleep. When I finally woke up my mattress was away from the wall for like 3-5 centimetres. I have no idea how that could've happened. It actually is pretty hard to move it.

Anyway, I had like 5 hours of sleep tonight. Not because I couldn't sleep, naah, I could sleep all day and be fine with it, but because I've decided to volunteer at the 'States of independence' - some kind of publishing event. Honestly, I want to do something with publishing after finishing uni, but I have no idea what publishing is about. I mean, is it hard, what exactly would I be doing and stuff like that. I bet that would be a great chance to actually see what publishers do. (that reminds me to chose my modules for next year)

You know what I'm listening while writing this? Taylor Swift. I don't really know why, but it kind of keeps me together. Not that I'm broken or something, I just feel quite strange this morning. Maybe I'm still half asleep, but I have a feeling that something might happen today. I'm just not quite sure if it's good or bad thing.
And my coffee is weak. Tasty, but weak. And I need to go shopping because I don't have bread and my butter is almost finished. But I really don't have any money to spend, since my money from two months (what I'm getting from my country for being an orphan) is now going to my rent. And I still need a few more pounds to cover that. I really desperately need job, that's just terrible how I have to use all of my savings on this apartment that I don't even like anymore. I wish I could move out of here. Maybe I should leave for a few days? To be honest, I'd love to go somewhere, but I have no idea where. I could visit my Godmother or her sister but I don't really feel like being a babysitter. I could visit my uncle but I'm not really sure where he lives and how much would it cost. I have another aunt  here but I haven't talked with her in ages and to be absolutely honest, I don't thing we ever were close, because she's my aunt from my Dad's side. I could visit my rpg partner, but it would cost way too much than I can spend.
But I don't want to whine about money, because I know I talk about it way too much. I'm always talking about my problems instead of something that makes me happy. Well, I'm happiest when my friends are around. And they are really busy at the moment. God I wish they wouldn't leave over the break. I will be sooo lonely. At least for Christmas holidays I had something to put my mind in. I mean job. I had job that took my mind of how lonely I am. I have no idea what I will do this holiday. Shit I hate holidays. Seriously. It sucks when my family is not around.

Sorry, I'm negative today. I hate that as well. I should probably head to the shower to get ready.

talk to you later babes x

I really hope I will get better during the day.
gif from 'ohsoswiftly' blog,
thanks for sharing it ;3