*5 months later* 'we have bad news'

Hi, guys..

I got bad news today. Well, I don't know how much of a 'news' since this happened 5 months ago.
Apparently, my grandad from my Dad's side passed away. And no one from that side of my family were kind enough to actually tell it to me. I mean, yeah, maybe calling to me is quite expensive, but they could have contacted my relatives back in Lithuania. And my cousin didn't mention it as well. And I wouldn't have found out at all, probably, if I wouldn't have gotten a letter from an institution that deals with the inheritance. I mean, I don't want anything from him, I can't remember the last time I saw him. And I know that he couldn't even remember me. Anyway, it's nothing much anyway. It's a house that would be shared amongst all of my aunts and uncles from his side. But I don't care about it. I mean... I lost someone from my family and no one bothered to tell me. No one. That freaking hurts.

But I don't want to talk about it. I mean, I barely knew the man, he barely cared for anything and didn't try to stay in touch. I know my Dad wouldn't be happy about me, reacting this way, but I'm pretty sure he understands that I can't be sad for people whom I don't know. I barely have any memories of him. I have more memories of my Dad and I lost him when I was almost 5, so, you can compare.

Anyway, I talked with my fam today. Quite a long time, to be honest. My uncle was in town, my Grandma came, so it was almost like family reunion or something. I'm not gonna lie, I would have loved to be with them today. I don't know why. I just feel that I shouldn't be alone. Though it's pretty obvious that I'm going to be, since it's quite late at their place now and they had to go. And my friends are being pricks again. I mean squad ones. I can't really make myself text the guys asking to chill. I asked if anyone from squad would like to go to McDonalds with me (just in case no one wants to chill) and basically, I got ignored. Not the best feeling in the world. Maybe it's just not my day.
And on top of all of this, my rpg partner seems really busy, so I can't even get my mind onto something else. I mean, I do have a project I'm working on, but that one needs inspiration and shit, and I don't have any of that.
As I say, not my day.
I think I'm gonna stop here, I don't want to ruin anyones mood ;3

literally me, 'sadtastical'. thanks for this gif. it's so freaking accurate.