No, nothing much happened, I was just really happy about talking to a certain person. You know me, getting excited over nothing and then it all disappears. So I just don't wanna talk about it for now. Maybe some time later. But anyway, what was strange enough, I woke up in a good mood as well. I doubt that's a good thing, because I also sang to my alarm, which I never do. I just believe that if you start your morning in that great of a mood, the mood in the evening will be bad. It's a saying in Lithuanian culture and golly Gosh so many times it came true. So I'm trying not to get too happy, you know? Hell knows what can happen during this day. Like, I'm supposed to get a lift from one of the co-workers, but nor I know his name, nor I have his number if something happened. Fun times. Just yesterday I talked to this person that works in the werehouse as well and they said since the bus didn't stop for them (too full), they had to take a taxi and it cost about 24 quid to get to work. Mine would be around 30-40 and I do not feel great paying that amount for travelling. So yeah, not sure what I'm supposed to do. Should I go for the bus? Should I trust the person to actually pick me up?
Either way, I'm doing quite great. I don't have much of a social life and I would probably sell my soul for a good night out right now, but at least I have a really good team that I work and joke around with. There are so many great people there and I do want to be able to talk to them. Its the stupid anxiety that makes me just wait for someone to talk to me first. Honestly, I can never think of a conversation starter. And most of the conversation I'm being sarcastic anyway (which most people dont understand and just call me rude). But I'm not sure if I should call this my problem or theirs. Either way, I don't know how to handle a simple conversation and that bugs me sometimes.
That's it for this morning, I still have to get ready and leave xx
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