I'm still here and I'm so proud of myself. Not sure what's gonna come out today tho as it was only work today. I mean, I woke up and checked my bank account just to realise that I've been taxed which should not have happened as I'm a student and it proper pissed me off, but hey, I'll get it back, so no worries.
Work was pretty chill, had a good laugh with few of the colleagues. Feet hurts again, but I just say it means I had a good exercise. Like, 10 hours at work and then around an hour of walking from the station to my flat. Imma get sooooo fit >:D maybe thats why I ordered a freakin takeaway. I need a treat and what can be better than food, right? I was feeling like Indian takeaway today (idk, maybe because I'm surrounded by them all day... or maybe because someone was microwaving their food and it was a smell of chicken tikka and I couldnt stop thinking about it).
Oh, you know what's funny? I've been ranting about my ex-crush yesterday and guess whom I see online first thing in the morning? It's like my facebook knows what I dont want to see and just shows it anyway. Its quite annoying, really. I don't want to admit that I will never ever talk to the guys again, so they're still in my facebook friends list, but every time their name pops up I just wanna close the tab and go do something else so I wouldnt need to see it. You get me? Its like ghosting people you already ghost.
Honestly, I have nothing to say today. I was just starring through the window thinking what else should I mention and nothing comes to my mind. I heard someone pronouncing my last name correctly but just because they were from Eastern Europe as well. Tbf not sure if Eastern, but somewhere around there. I'm not too bad with geography, I just dont know where is this person from. But yeah, hearing it was really really nice. I mean, I have a laugh with British people and their attempt to pronounce it correctly, but for once in a while it was a really nice change. I think I'm starting to miss Lithuanian language a little bit. I only message or call to my Aunties or Uncle in Lithuanian (well, ocasionally a friend, but that's like once a week) and we dont really talk much anyway, so it's getting quite stupidly hard to say a proper sentence without putting an English word in it. I got so used to talk in English, honestly, even if I don't know a word, I know how to explain it. And when I speak in lithuanian, I just automatically get the word in English and try to translate the freaking description from English. And I'm not even that good at my spoken English, I stutter whenever I have to say more than one sentence, even with one, if it has complicated words in it I get confused. Like, I dont like listening to myself while I speak. And it makes it difficult because I'm so used just to murmuring to myself, others find it hard to understand me or hear me. Sad, I know.
That somehow reminded me that we all decided that I am crazy in a good way (hopefully). I was wearing my sweater saying 'normal people scare me' (AHS reference btw) and people would come up to me and ask why and then at the end of the conversation they would just nod and say that it means I'm crazy. Some guys even giggled that I probably love Harley Quinn and that I'm looking for a Joker. WELL, I dont need an abusive relationship, but having someone would probably be quite nice. Not that I know how relationships work.
Anyway, that's it from me for today, Imma go get my food and go to bed.
Love you x
p.s. sorry about the adds, if I learn this won't get me any extra money, I'll take them down xx
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