The last guy that said this to me got the question why and replied with 'oh because you're pretty, so I just assumed, because most pretty girls are like that'. You know what? Them pretty girls are only make up and outside. They dont have the freaking inside to show so they just fill it with alcohol and drugs. I'm pretty happy with my personality (minus anxiety and depression), I can have fun without these things and it would be as much fun as while being intoxicated. I'm not saying I dont drink at all, I drink when I want, but that's a rare thing. To be fair, I drank yesterday. I bought a can of archers and lemonade because it was discounted and I drank it because I felt like it. But that doesnt make me a girl who drinks a lot. I tried weed in my life, yes, but that defo doesnt make me a girl who does it every freaking day. I actually despise people who drink or smoke too much. Some of my relatives have problems with alcohol, I'm not denying it, but it only makes it worse. I see how badly it affects someone and I just cant deal with it. I dont want to put myself through the same thing they're going. So being told I look like someone who drinks or parties a lot is not a compliment. It's a freaking insult. I hate it. I know I have bags under my eyes and it looks like I've been on some heavy drugs for quite some time but it's just me not getting my sleep and not eating properly. It's because I'm tired, not because I drink.
Its so annoying, I tell you.
I've lost friends because of weed. I still see them on facebook or snapchat but I haven't talk to them in ages. I don't want to. because last couple of times I've met up with them they were stoned. I didn't enjoy it at all. So I cut that off my life. I don't need it. I will find friends who are fine without weed in their life.
After I got mad about this, he asked 'oh so you're one of those good girls then' and it made me even more angry. Yes I am a good girl, is that a problem? Is it a problem I chose to take care of my body? Whats wrong with doing what I want to do? Do I look like an easy score to someone then? Because you know what? Fuck them. I told this to one guy, I will tell this to the others as well. I dont want sex before marriage. Its a lie, dont get me wrong, I'm pretty sure I couldn't control myself for that long, but I did notice that it gets rid of all the fuckboys when they realise I will not fuck around. I had guys saying 'we'd just cuddle, no sex, come over'; I had guys saying 'oh, its ok, we'll get to sex eventually, we can just make out for now' and I believe none of this. I need them to understand that sex for me is not something I'd just do with a random person. For me, sex is something you do with a person that you love. Someone whom you'd love to make happy. Not a stranger that wouldn't know what to do with you. It might sound old fashioned, but I dont like people screwing around. Yes, its 21st century, everyone does it but honestly, I stayed virgin for 20 years, I dont mind waiting more.
I don't know how I got to the sex topic, but the point is, don't say that all pretty girls are party animals and alcoholics, thats so not true.
Thats it for now, gonna go and knit some more x
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