Either way, mine is. Like, really! I woke up from the call that my package is here and it was a wonderful way to start my day. Then I realised that I can spend all day treating myself! I ate pizza and I felt good about it. I had pedicure and I love it so much! I had hair mask on all day, I had face mask and I can't tell you how great I feel.
Ok, I had to stop a little bit after my last sentence. I didn't know what else I should have said. Well, maybe except for the fact that my flatmate loved my pie from yesterday. I think I'll have to give her the recipe. Anyway, yeah, I am happy today, but (I hate having sentences with 'but' in it) something is missing. Maybe all of the posts I see on Facebook, instagram, yik yak and snapchat? I mean, I'm happy for everyone, I love their celebration of love but I would be so glad to celebrate it with someone! Even if it wouldn't be a romantic way. I hate spending holidays alone. And since I do feel like I annoy my friends most of the time, I can't convince myself to text them asking if they want to hang out or not. And I am that person that has to be dragged into socials and stuff like that. And who knows what my friends are doing today. I don't want to be the third wheel if they have had plans all along. Anyway, yeah, I would like some company and so far I had just my tv-shows and a few text from my aunt. Yeah, sounds like a wonderful Valentine's day.
I mean, I'm not saying there was something different about all past Valentine's day. Maybe the fact that I wasn't alone and I was with my family. See? I'm not used to being alone. I need someone to be with me. I don't need anyone talking, I just need someone who would be here, near me. I need it, seriously. God I must sound so desperate. I don't need love, please, I'm my favourite person anyway, I need company. The only problem getting it is me. I can't make myself text anyone because I feel unwelcome. Especially today.
Anyway, happy thoughts! I love my hair, it smells like coconut! And my body smells like coffee (body butter, the best thing ever!) and my toes looks awesome! All that's left is my nails and I'll be at my best. And you know what? I haven't wore a bra for the past two days! Can you imagine how good it feels? Who needs a bra anyways?! (Yeah, tell that to yourself tomorrow, Judita).
I hope you are celebrating this day with someone that you want to be with x
'ryannotbrian' pink heart and chibbi eyes? What else one need for the Valentine's day, right? Thanks for sharing it ;3
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