So I've been out yesterday. Well, not out out, I was at friends house. There were quite a few people and I really enjoyed to be with them. To be fair, I'm not entirely sure how I ended up going to them since I haven't spoken with any of them for a long time. But anyway, it was quite nice. Apparently they've read my blog earlier which is quite... nice to know. And I got a note that my blog doesn't have enough gossip. To be fair, I don't know who to gossip about, since I don't mention any names and I don't hang out with shady people. The worst gossip I can tell you is about myself and you guys know I tell you mostly everything anyway, so that doesn't even count as a gossip.
But anyway. At that friends house we were drinking and I had a bottle of wine and I have no idea how I drank all of it by myself (cuz they were drinking vodka with mixer) and I had a few shots of tequila. Kids, don't mix those two. I genuinely wanted to die this morning. Like, not 'hangover' die, like I've been poisoned die. But yeah, hangover as well. Gosh, I cant remember if I even had one, so imagine my surprise when I woke up with it. That's a lesson for me not to mix my drinks. I knew I shouldn't but I thought 'well, it's like two shots, nothing will happen'. MHM. NOTHING. I didn't even go to work today. I called them and told them I've been throwing up all morning. Like, I wasn't even lying. I don't think they were very happy about it but hey, not that I really care if I'm not working there anymore, right? But yeah, the funny thing is, while I was walking home being all drunk in the middle of the night, I met one of the managers. I don't remember how the conversation went and I really dont want to know. I hope he's understanding... haha.
But anyway, since that 'gossiping' thing doesn't leave my mind, I've decided I have a topic to talk about.
Guys I like.
You know when someone asks me about my type, I always get confused. 'I don't know' I would say. But now I've been going through the list of guys I admired/fancied/liked. Most of them are so similar! Blond hair, blue-ish eyes, tall, older than me, has a nice smile, sometimes doesn't know what to say. Is that what you call a 'type'? I always imagined it would be more of 'has great sense of humour, is kind, loves basketball' and stuff like that. I thought it meant on the inside, but apparently, my horny side cares for their image. And you know what sucks? They all look so freaking good and then there is me, who is a little bit chubby, has a lot of acne everywhere, not to mention being hairy as a fucking gorilla (yes, I do shave quite often, but if I'd do it from toes to neck it would take me all day and ain't nobody got time for that). So, yeah, that's why I never really let myself loose around them. Like, yes, I get butterflies when I see them or if I hear their name, but I really can't imagine being in a relationship with them just because they are so attractive.
And then my second type is literally the opposite: Dark hair, dark eyes, not too tall, but taller than me, always makes me laugh and dress properly. Obviously, older than me. I just can't look at younger boys the same way I look at the older guys. Even if it's just a few days, but sorry, mate, you look like a child to me. And then again, they do look so good I feel insecure around them. But with this type of guys it's a bit different. I don't know why, to be fair, but even if I do get butterflies when I see them, I can calm them down and just be my normal self (tbf, my normal self is really shy, I don't do shy around others because I'm awesome).
But yeah, whenever someone asks me about my 'type' I'm lost. I gave you two types of guys I admire and they are different. Like, absolutely different (ok, ok, they have age and good looks in common). So how should I answer this kind of question instead of 'I don't know'? I think the last time someone asked me I said 'they have to be lithuanian' and it was such a filthy lie. I liked probably like two or three lithuanian guys in total and there is a bunch of english ones that I really fancy. It's probably their accent. I'm such a slut for accents :(
But anyway, hope nothing made you feel uncomfortable while reading this, if you have anything to say, please, don't hesitate to write a comment ^-^
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