I've told you before - I love my body. I love every curve and stretch mark that I have, it's just I'm not confident enough to show it to someone.
But you know what's not fun? Saying I shouldn't be eating because I'm already fat. Me? Fat? Seriously?
Ok, you probably are wondering why I've started talking about this. In the past hour I've talked with two different people and while talking, I had my dinner. You know what both of them said? 'Oh my God stop eating, you're always eating, you're chubby already!' with a laugh afterwards. This is literally red/taboo topic to me. Especially while I'm eating. I was enjoying my meal so much and after that each bite stuck in my throat. I'm sensitive about it, ok? I know I eat alot but that's my issue to worry about, not anyone else's. How much of an asshole you have to be to tell that to a person who just made himself/herself a meal that they shouldn't be eating that.
So, yeah. The first person was not that bad, you know. She teased me one, realised what she said and changed the topic. The other person, he didn't just tell me I'm fat already, he started painting an image with his words how everything on my body jiggles with fat and he's ashamed of me. That was one of my cousins. You know what I did? I ended the conversation in the middle of his sentence and blocked him from my facebook. And I don't really care if his Mum or Dad are going to be annoyed by that, I won't let anyone tell me I'm not beautiful when I spent fucking three years trying to convince myself that I'm, in fact, very curvy and have a figure of a true woman. I don't need any negativity in my life, sorry.
Anyway. Body shaming is the worst thing you can do to me. It ruins my mood for the rest of the day and just before I picked the call from my cousin, I was ready to write a nice post here with many questions about myself. Now I'm not in a mood to do anything so I'm just going to find some documentary and go to bed, because fuck the world.
Thank you for attention, still love you all x
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