Today I can actually say 'Good Morning' and actually mean 'morning' instead of 'afternoon'

ok, so, I don't know how many of you knows, but I have a fear of phone calls in the morning. More specifically, when someone calls me while I'm asleep. It started on the morning when someone called me to tell me that my Mum has passed away. From that day, if I ever get a phone call in the morning, my heart starts to ponder and my hands start to shake.
So when my bestfriend told me she has so much to tell me, but she's back from work around 5 am (when I'm obviously asleep), I asked her to call me. I don't know why she didn't, but I found a message asking if she should. I don't know if she knows what  happens to me whenever I pick that morning call, but that was really sweet of her.


But that's not what I want to talk about. That was just to have in mind that I knew I'm going to receive a call in the morning and I think I was kind of preparing myself for it. But the best part? I had a dream about my Mum. Guys, you have no idea how much I've missed seeing Her and be able to hug Her and tell Her I love Her so much. And I did everything in that dream - I was with Her and it was the best dream I had in a while. When I woke up, I needed a minute to understand that I did, in fact, dreamt about Her, but when I did, I thought I'm going to cry. And not even from sadness, no! I was so happy She decided to visit me in my dreams. I think that was mostly because I was thinking about that morning call so much and it obviously associates with Her, so.. you know. Good times, I suppose. The most important thing, I got to spend time with my Mum and nothing can make my day better.

Anyway, I have a lot to do today. I need to go to the bank, I need to pay my rent (because for some reason I can't do it online), I really really need to clean my house and I still have work today, plus, I need to organise two calls with friends from Lithuania, so that's even more complicated.  Oh, and I need to figure out why I didn't get my full deposit back. So today is a day full of errands.
But if I'm being honest, I don't think I want to work at Sahar's. Like, yes, money is money, but will few pounds make any difference?  Like, yeah, maybe I'll be able to afford a new dress or something, but basically, all day for me is ruined because I'm working there for three hours. Idk, if I'd get to keep my tips, that would be so much better. And I was talking with other girls in one of the facebook groups and they all laughed saying that I'm being used. I mean, I understand I am, but what can I do?

Ech, guys, at least I have a memory of my dream for today. That should keep me going, right? Because at the moment I'm feeling kind of strange. Maybe it's just that I'm not used to being awake at 10 in the morning..

you know what? This quote in the gif fucked me up. I love it so much and at the same time I hate it. Please be truly happy or let someone else help you to be happy, ok?

gif is from 'leanchen-world' thanks ;3