I don't know what happened, really. I wasn't in the mood, I suppose. And I feel so stupid right now to have marks all over my wrist from yesterday (apparently the knife was sharp enough to leave them). I still don't feel great, but I slept on everything and now everything seems so stupid. Crush? Really? That was a guy I almost slept with. Woah, big deal.
It's not a big deal, ok? I was drunk when that almost happened, he was drunk and that's it. And I was thinking way too much about it. There is nothing to think about. We're friends. I love all of my friends and that's it. I care for them as well and probably seeing him in bad mood put me even in the worst mood. I mean, it's not the first time this has happened. Ask my ex-best-friend. Whenever she wasn't in the mood, I'd get even more upset. It's same here.
Either way, I have one day to get ready to finish my assignment and prepare a speech for work. Apparently I'm getting promoted to leadership tomorrow, so I'd have to say thank you to the office. It does sound like a fun task, but we all know how bad I am at public speaking. Byt hey, my new moto is Fake it until you make it. That's what I'm gonna do.
I should probably head to the shower. I made myself quite decent breakfast and now I feel so full all I wanna do is sleep. But obviously I'm not gonna sleep. I slept for 10 hours this night. And I need to do my assignment. And as well clean my room, because it looks like someone planted an atomic bomb here and blew it up. And it means I'll get to put my music on the max volume so it might get my mind out from all the fuss that has happened. I don't want to think about anything that happened, I don't want it to make any impact on how I act around my friends and how I feel about them.
I really need to take my mind off from this. I have to go and clean my room. Have a nice day guys x
Ah, I wih I could spend my day sunbathing.... <3
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