I think I slept too much. I don't know why I think so, but you know. Or maybe I'm just not in the mood. Yeah yeah, it's Saturday, I have work in the evening and I'm happy about it, but it's just so not my week. I spilt a fair amount of expensive alcohol yesterday by accident, so now I'm worried that it's gonna come out of my wage and I really can't afford it. On top of that, it was really really busy yesterday, so obviously I got really tired. And then there was this couple that argued with me about what I did and what I didn't do. I hate people like that. Like, I know how to do my job, why the fuck would they argue? Anyway, it was absolutely busy, so instead of arguing for the rest of the evening, I asked one of my co-workers to talk with them and I didn't even see how it went. After we've closed, I felt like literally sleeping on the floor right there. I was so tired. Obviously we had to wait for a bit to get out, then finally I went home and aah, sleep.
I can't imagine how I'm gonna have to walk home net week, when I'll move. It's going to be like 20 minutes walk. And since I'm not taking any taxi, it's gonna be as exhausting, as it is working. But I need money, what can I do.
See? I'm obviously not in the mood. I started ranting first thing in the morning and I don't like it at all. I'm supposed to be happy and excited and stuff, but instead, I sit here hating the whole world and all I wanna do is watch a cartoon or something. Or maybe pack my stuff. I'll probably do that, because I hate how everything is just not in a place.
Thank God I have chocolate. Thank you my dear auntie who brought it for me. I really need some support here. Or could it be that my mood is low because of something else? Like, I've stopped taking vitamin C, I don't know if I take my other supplements regularly. I forget stuff, I can't concentrate on anything, I'm always in a bad mood... something is not right and I don't know how to fix it. Maybe it's just a phase but it sucks. I really hope I'll feel better in a few hours. Or days. I can't be like this next week, I just can't.
Gosh, I miss my friends as well. All of them. Or maybe I just miss spending time with someone. The last time I hung out with someone, was my flatmate when we went outside to tan a bit. But that was last week. I obviously talk to my family from time to time, but it's not the same. I just want someone to be besides me. Hug me. Talk to me. I really need someone by my side at this time.
I'm sorry I'm like that this morning. I really hope I'll get better.
I love you so so much xx
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