As for today, my blog was refreshed 70 times. Like, seriously, guys, what are you doing here? ^-^' I'm obviously really pleased but before it was never more than 30 refreshes of the pages. I'm really confused.. I haven't done any advertising for this apart from the link in my facebook description, but who would think I'm that interesting? I'm a boring person :|
The fact that someone read my blog so many times, I must be wrong, but then again, what's interesting about me then? Is it my hopeless attempts to find love? Is it my problems? Is it the way I talk? I need answers :|
Anyway.
I told you this morning that I was happy. That I woke up in a good mood and I would stay in it all day. Well that was a filthy lie. I got my mood ruined as soon as I went to work. I obviously had to wait around 10 minutes for them to unlock the doors, then I obviously had nothing to do, so I read "Game of Thrones" on my phone. Then by the end of the evening he pointed out my mistakes from before as if he ever taught me how to fill the bills. Either way, while walking home I was shivering and I couldn't understand why. Until I realised I was afraid of something. The park I walk through was still full of people, mostly high teenagers. I felt so insecure. Near the campus, there were guys who catcalled me and it was so awful. I thought I'm going to run home and we all know I hate running. Anyway, I walked the rest of the way. I went into my room, got into my night robe, called my aunt and talked with her for a bit. She, obviously, didn't make my evening better.
And now I've realised I haven't had anything proper to eat. My breakfast was coffee with toasted bread, my lunch was tea with chocolate, at work I ate mints and small cookies (and I got a bit of flat bread or whatever it's called) and that's all. I do feel quite hungry, but I literally have no energy to go to the kitchen and make myself some food.
Is that a sign of depression? Am I going through that shit again? I hate feeling like this.
But as long as I have all of you, I'm going to be fine. Love you xx
gif is from 'd-e-c-o-m-p-r-e-s-s' thank you so much ;3
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