Honestly, my pms is trying to get me killed, or worse - fired. Yeah, let's start from here. I almost punched my co-worker in the face because he was joking around. Well, I told him he shouldn't do that and he still did, so I'm not the one to blame, but still, Judita should not act like this. She is kind, sweet, lovely person that helps everyone as much as she can. Right? I confess, after that fight I had to go outside and chill for a minute. And take some sedative medicine. I don't know if it's the name for it, but they make me calmer. I got them the first time when I was around 12, I think. Good stuff, good stuff. I was told to drink it 3 times a day, but at the end I use them just when I need to. They do help alot. I have no idea what I'd do without them. And still I do not like to use sedatives. Like, I wanted to overdose them once and I don't want to have that temptation again. I'm way too strange to know that I won't do that again. I could. That's why I avoid my medicine as much as possible. So, yeah. If you see me having those, know that there is a huge mess in my head.
Anyway, I kind of know what I want for Christmas, guys! I texted this one woman that does tattoos and she said she'd do it for £30. Now all I need to decide is where and when. I really do want that tattoo, it means the world to me. You just wait, I'll post it as soon as I'll get it.
But the main thing I sat down to write this is not my tattoo or my pms. Maybe it is about my pms, but it's not like I didn't think about this sooner. So, yeah. Here we go. Remember my ex-best friend I told you about? Well, the point is, I hella miss her. Like, miss as in the person I could tell everything and still not be judged. I miss that person and I texted her today. It was almost the same as if nothing had happened. Yeah, we did apologised one another long time ago, so there was no issues between. But we didn't talk for a long time. And I did texted her today, asking how is she. We ended up talking for more than an hour and I felt so happy about it. I was feeling like everything could get back to the start. That we could forget that issue, that we could be friends again. I miss her. I miss her voice, I miss her hugs, I miss everything we went through. I miss those times we were together. She was more than a best friend. She was my Sister that I adored more than anything. So, yes, I do miss her so terribly much. And hearing that she is doing fine, that everything is alright made me think that I'm so proud of her. She chases her dreams and I hope she will reach them! And she said she tried reading my blog. The only issue she had is the language, since she don't really speak English. Maybe it's for the best, right? I mean I told our story from my perspective, it could make her angry again. I don't want to make her angry again. I adore her, even if I'm not supposed to. So, yeah. The point is, I terribly miss her and I want her back in my strange life.
Night x
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