Just some stuff from the past

A memory no child should have

Only light that was in this room was televisions. Teletubbies were on and this little girl sat on her Mums lap watching them. She was such a cutie talking about how she will celebrate her fifth birthday in fifteen days. Her Mum smiled to her and continued to feed a child with her favourite yogurt. The little girls father came into that room with a sad smile on his face. Of course she didn‘t notice it. She was watching teletubbies, her favourite show ever! That was until her father said her name. The little one turned her head to her lovely dad and smiled. She always smiled for them. Her mum and dad were the most precious people she had and she always reminded that to them by saying how much she loves them.

'Sweetie, I love you.'He said with a shaking voice. At that moment the little girl didn‘t understand there were tears in his eyes.

'I love you too, daddy. I‘m watching teletubbies. You want to join?' her childish voice was cheerful.

'No, sweetie. I came to say goodbye.'

'But where are you going?' she asked quite confused. They were supposed to go to sleep after teletubbies was over.

'Nowhere, sweetie. Nowhere.'He took his little girls hand and squeezed it a little bit.

After that his wife told him to quit acting strange and go take a shower. He smiled to her, said he loves her too, he said goodbye to both of them. And then he went to the bathroom.

The little girl doesn‘t remember what happened for the next twenty minutes. She only knows that her mum left room and next thing she heard was her mum screaming. Of course the kiddo was so curious she stood up on her feet and ran to the bathroom. He was laying there, on the ground with rope around his neck. His eyes were closed, his face so peaceful you could think he‘s sleeping. The second after the little girl saw this, her mum pushed her away and closed the doors hoping her precious daughter didn‘t see anything. But she did. And it haunted her for the rest of her life. That little girl is me and that is the first thing I remember from my childhood.