I Do..

Guyyyys,

I do really really love my #squad. I mean, seriously, I do. They are fantastic people, all of them. The funny part is that I complained that someone from my #squad was avoiding me and here I am doing the very same thing myself. And if anyone would ask why, I wouldn't know what to say. Really, I have no idea why I'm refusing to go out. Maybe because I have chilling buddies now? Damn it, it's so hard to have more than one friend. How to deal with them? How to divide my time so no one would be upset??? It's killing me, to be honest. I do want to be the best friend I can possibly be, but at the same time, I need to do so much work. By work I don't mean my job only. I haven't even noticed how quickly the deadline for our second assignment came. I need to spend some time on my laptop doing it. It's not really hard, I think, but still, I do need to concentrate. Or at least make a group of my #squad guys to go to the library to study. But we need booth, not the computer area. Firstly, because the chairs are really uncomfortable. Secondly, because laptops are way better and then we won't need to use usb. Win win.
Either way, I fucked up with my sleeping schedule. Like, yesterday I could go to sleep at 11 pm and get a good nights sleep, but you know what? Instead of this perfect plan, I spent 3 hours on 9gag and decided it's time to sleep when it was around 2. I'm terrible at managing my time, seriously. But I told you that already, didn't I? Well, this is just a reminder that I didn't solve this problem. I do have a lot of problems, but you know what? Without them it would be really boring to live. Struggles are what makes your life interesting and I do love living this way.
I use "I do" alot today, don't I? Don't ask me why, I have no idea. Maybe this is a confession? You know, my youtube channel plays Hallelujah by Patd, so this might be the case. Ugh, I love them. They make the best music ever. You can dance to it, you can sing it, you can cry while listening to them. Perfect, I tell you. I wish I could sing better, I would take my #squad to the karaoke place. I think I saw one while walking in the city centre. I miss those guys, damn it. We should totally hang out more. Although I told them that I am really tired after work and I'd like to go out on my day off. But noo, apparently, there are no good clubs open on Monday or Wednesday. Ugh, this is so tiring. Maybe I could try to go out on Tuesday, but I feel like waisting my money when I get home after 12 and I could be at Mosh at half 12. Like, seriously, why would I pay fiver if I know that at 2 am someone will want to go to McDonalds? That's a waist of my precious money. I have spent way too much this month and I intend to not do that again. I barely can pay my rent. I know how I could get a little more money but I can't make myself do it. Although it's really easy, I just need to send a letter. Maybe I'm gonna do it today. I need to check if there is any post cans (lol, how do you call them?) near Tesco. I'm heading there after this lecture, because I'm kind of out of shower supplies. I bet my roommates curse me for having so much stuff in our bathroom. Sorry that I use 3 different conditioners, but with the hair like mine, it's really hard. Especially to take care of the colour, that I need to lighten again. Damn you, hair, why can't you grow faster so I wouldn't need to dye you while there are not many roots showing. Wow, that was one hell of the English, wasn't it?

I'm gonna go now, guys, love you x

gif from "adamisfat", thanks for sharing it, even though I took it out of the context ;3 [the first gif was Benedict Cumberbach (I hope I spelt it right) a.k.a. Sherlock Holmes holding a ring box.]