I'm really sorry about it.
Anyway. I feel so fucking scared right now. When I've noticed something in my breast, as I said, I felt a lump or something, I started searching for it everyday, to make sure if it didn't disappear or something. But as I've touched it now, it felt bigger than it was before. I am so terribly scared. I can't wait for Wednesday to check it out. Seriously, guys, I feel like this is not a good sign. And it hurts when I touch it as well.
I don't want to tell this to anyone, to be honest with you, because I've mentioned before that I'm not ready to talk about any of this, but I really need to put my mind off from it here. As I said, please, don't talk about it with me in real life or I'll just ignore you or get really mad. Thank you for your understanding.
Anyway, my job! I love it so much I can't even tell you how much I love it! I mean, my back hurts from all the standing and stuff, but I feel sooooooo goood knowing what I'm doing! I've actually made some money as well (because we're getting paid for the job we've done, not hourly) and I'm so proud of myself that I got to help children in need! And people I talked today were so nice! Well, there were a few that told me to buy ak-47 and shoot every poor child so they wouldn't need anything or to castrate everyone there so they wouldn't procreate (I hope I rephrase it right because I don't even want to start about the rant I got). Anyway, yeah, my job is great, I meet a lot of new people and all my colleagues are absolutely amazing! I love working there ;3
And that's basically it. I have nothing more to tell you. Literally I got back from wok and went to bed to rest a bit. I wanted to get a nap, but then I wouldn't be able to sleep at like 10 or 11 and then it would be hard to wake up at 5-ish (I've done this today). So, yeah. I'm gonna check a few things I still need to do, get a quick shower and I'm going straight to bed. And honestly, I feel soooo ashamed I haven't replied to my tumblr rpg, I literally can't think of anything else than my work at the moment (and, you know, my little problem that I will sort out in Wednesday. And yeah, I've called my aunt because I just needed to hear her confirmation that it's gonna be fine, because I don't know why, but her voice always assures me). Anyway, it was great to chat a bit with you guys, I love you so much!
Have a nice evening x
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