No, Anna, Go away

Six days. I should be ashamed of myself.

Really.

And title is a replay for the last post I published, no one is telling me to go away, no worries ;3

To be honest, I am really confused about everything atm. Like, I really really want to go back home to Leicester, because I freaking love that city, but at the same time, I look at my family (AND MY DEAREST CAT) and I am so afraid of leaving them again. When I think about it, I actually regret coming back. Yes, I did miss them so much I'd have done anything, but now when I think that here, my Grandma will have to say goodbye to me again, it's kind of sad. It's really really sad, actually. I remember how we all cried when I was leaving for the first time, so obviously, it won't be better this time. And they all believe I'll be back for the summer, but if we are speaking honestly right now, I doubt I'll afford it. I mean I''ll have to pay my rent either way, and I need to start saving up for my another house for next year. And since it's even more expensive, I have no idea where I'll get that money from. But that is a problem for my future self. I just have to have this in mind, that I won't be able to get back to Lithuania to spend holidays, because I'll have to work hard for my living.
But it's not what I want to talk about. To be honest, I'd loe to tell you guys about my holidays here, but truth to be told, there is nothing to talk about. I spent most of my time back at home, in the room with my laptop, because I realised I have no intention to go outside when it's -20. Obviously, I spent most of my time with brother and sister and cousin, the kids, but it's so not why I got back. I imagined I won't get back home until late at night, that I'll be out with friends and do stuff, but honestly, like three of my friends took an opportunity to see me. One came from Kaunas to spend the night with me, I am so grateful for this. Other one lives near, but knowing how busy she is with her work (she's photographer, you should totally see her work. I looooove it soooo much) I really appreciate her effort to see me whenever she can. And the third friend, that is a little bit older than me... All she was talking about was how we should go clubbing and chill and stuff. But the problem is, me and my auntie have no one to leave my sister and brother to. Their dad isn't really dad material, so obviously he's out. Grandma is too sick to take care of them... So we just chilled at our house with a bottle of martini. Got a little tipsy, and that's all the fun we had. So, yeah, quite boring. Oh well, at least it's the time spent other than looking at my laptop screen.
Anyways, we have guest coming over, see you later x

gif from 'panda-city', thanks for sharing ;3