Yes, I do have that pillow. For quite a few weeks now. Primark. Love that store. Anyway, the point I'm trying to make here is that it reminds me to keep corners of my lips up. It means I'm smiling. Why am I explaining myself... So why am I talking about this? Let me tell you.
I was offered a job today. Like, not the ideal one, but quite nice. I was quite ready to take it up to the point where I googled the distance. It's like 47 minutes walk from my place to theirs. And If I'd calculate that a little bit, for me to get there and to get home would be 4,8 miles. Then let's add the distance I'd walk in the store doing stuff. I mean, it's a good exercise but not in the winters time. I sweat quite a lot so I'd come to work all wet and nasty. I don't like the idea of that, so I had to say no. God damn, I hate this. I really need job and being in this position kills me. That's why my pillow is here. To support me that everything is gonna be alright.
But why am I sad. I'm not. To be honest, I'm hungry, but I'm too lazy to go and make something. Like, I'd literally have to just microwave my food, but naah. Too lazy. Here I am chewing my bubble gum, feeling like I'm gonna pass out because I had a cup of coffee and like two biscuits. But hey, that's a student life, isn't it? Love it. Adore it. Worship it. I need to lose a few kilos anyways, right? Ahh, good time to be alive.
Ok, I'm writing a nonsense because I have nothing to tell to anyone. Like, really, nothing happened. I couldn't sleep this night... again. I opened the window after a few hours of trying so I woke up in like a really cold room. I'll get sick because of that, I can guarantee that.
Talking of sickness. I don't know why, but yesterday, when I couldn't sleep (boys, skip this paragraph) I thought of going to gyn. Like, for a talk, nothing more, cuz I'm way too scared to open my legs to anyone (ok, lol, I thought about that as well). Well, honestly I'm scared to do that for a stranger. Anyway, why, you ask, I wanna go there? well. Well because I am quite disturbed by my emotions. I think it might be because of my period and I want to be sure. Like, I've noticed something and I need to check if that's because of my period or am I just imagining things. So, yeah. Anyone knows any good gyn's in Leicester? Ok, no, wait. I need a free one, because I can't afford going anywhere else. Sooo. Yeah. Do you register to them through the phone as you would for a normal visit? I'd probably ask someone else to do the registration for me. God why am I so embarrassed.
Ok, boys can read again. Soooo, yeah. Um, I was actually wondering about how guys notice that a girl likes them? I mean, in my case, I am so obvious a ten years old could tell I have a crush. But there are girls that hides it really really well. I was wondering how they do that. And if guys notices it anyways. Can someone explain to me how this thing works? Because um... just because. I don't know. E... fuck. I'm gonna stop here before I say something that's not supposed to be out here.
have a nice day guys x
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