Isn't the morning beautiful? I love this day so far! I woke up with the smile on my face (I hope it's a good sign). I made myself coffee with, I guess, spoiled milk, but does it really matter... I talked with my family for five minutes and even though I couldn't really hear them, at least I saw them. Oh, how much I miss my family... But anyways, they are ok, that means I'm ok too! Isn't the morning beautiful? I love Sundays. It's the day when you wake up knowing, that you lived for one more week in your life and you have to be grateful for that. I love being happy about small things and this ones makes me even more happy. Maybe because I can repeat that for every week for the rest of my life :3
To be honest, youtube plays sad songs. I don't know why. Maybe I just pretend to be happy? My ears hear "all of me" by John Legend and my eyes are full of tears. Is it saddness or happiness? I can't really tell. I should read "Pollyanna" again. Have you guys read it? It's a book about a little girl who lost her parents and came to live with her pessimist aunt. Pollyanna is still a child but in my mind she is so wise! She teaches everyone a game, called "Happiness game", which she learned from her father. The game is simple - in every situation in your life you should find a way to be happy about it. There was one episode from Pollyanna's life when she was hoping she will get a doll from charity but insted, she got crutches. You know what? She was happy, that she could gift it to someone, who needs it. I've learned so much from her. I should read that book again.
My heart is beating so fast. Maybe because youtube played next song. "Passenger - Let her go". This song reminds me of my dear Mother. My dearest, most loved and missed Mother. She passed away two years ago. She was the most kind, generous, loving person I've ever met. I wish I could be more like Her. I know, that right now, She would look at me and tell me to stop crying for stupid reasons. She would hug me, She would rock me in Her arms telling me that everything is fine. That She loves me more than anyone else. And I would believe Her. We would go make tea and watch tv-series or anything like that. Maybe we would go for a drive. She always knew how to make me happy. Just a memory of Her makes me smile. I know She is still with me, it's just I can't see Her. And I know it hurts Her seeing me crying. I'm so sorry for that.... It's ok! I'm smiling again! I'm fine!
Sorry for the depressing post, guys, but I was told to keep a journal of everything I possibly think of. How was your day? I want to know!
Gif from "lotsoftrees" from tumblr.com. Thank you for this one! It reminds me to Hug my problems out :3
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