I hate throwing food away. Seriously, I absolutely hate it. And I have no idea why my food is getting bad after half a day in the fridge. I almost shred a tear when I had to throw my fruits away, because they smelled disgusting. If I knew I throw away food, that can still be used for some reason, I would feel better, but when it gets bad, I want to kill someone. Like, c'mon, we could feed half the world with the food we waste. Yeah, and I'm working at reastaurant, where basically no one finishes their food. Everytime my poor heart breaks when I have to throw rices, meat or bread away. How can anyone waste their food AND money like this? Ugh, I want to do something about it. I just don't know what. Any ideas?
I'm angry again today. Why? Well, that is a question worth more than a million. Wasting food makes me sad, but angry? My guess is weather. Where is the sun? This kind of weather makes me grumpy. I want to hang out in my bed with laptop in my lap with blanket all over me (someone promised me a new blanket, so I'm Sooooooo gonna brag when I get it. Get ready.). But can I do that all day? Noo.... I need to do my homework, I need to get ready to work and still figure out what the hell is wrong back in Lithuania, with my family. Those guys are seriously killing me with "no, not everything is ok, but you don't have to worry". Don't they know, that I basically have a phobia about that word? Everytime I get a call in the morning, while being here, I'm scared I'll hear the very same words I heard two years ago. I don't want that. Maybe thats why I'm so emotional these past days. I feel like I could burst into tears any minute now. But I won't. I don't cry this often. One time a month is one time a month too much. I hate crying. I feel too weak then. I cannot afford being weak. Why would I ever cry? I have the best #squad ever, I have my family, I have a job, I'm in my dream country, I study a language I absolutely adore. It's perfect. Why would I ever want anything else? I should be happy about it. I AM happy about it. And I still feel like crying. I hate this. Sorry, gotta go, ca'nt really see a keyboard anymore.
Love you guys!
yeah, my mood today. as always....
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