Bundle of joy!

It's Saturday, bitches!

Sorry, I shouldn't call you like that out loud. But I have a day off so I'm happy as fuck today. I slept until, like, half one and it was the best sleep I ever had. Although I had pretty dumb dreams, but who doesn't? I'm not telling you about it, because it's kind of embarassing, but you can totaly tell that I'm crushing over someone. Dumb brain of mine. But nbd, I've had this before, I know how to deal with everything. Guess who started writing a story? Well, not started. I had like 20 pages of it already, but now I have inspiration to continue. I would share it with you, guys, but it's in lituanian and I'm too lazy to translate it. It's about a girl, who has schizophrenia and multiply personalities disorder. Ugh, I love writing about her. She's my little baby girl and a bundle of joy. Even though I haven't written her story for a while now. But now I can, because I'm inspired! Oh, and the band "The Baseballs" really helps. I love their covers! Oh, I could listen to them 24/7, what I basically do for two days now. Shame I don't have my speakers with me. I would probably lose myself to their music and I would dance everything off in my room. With curtains closed, of course. Too many windows, from where anyone can see my room. I love dancing by myself, if I'm sure no one is watching. Ugh, I have so many phobias I will probably die without trying most of the stuff I could. But well, as long as I go out and don't feel as an outcast, I'm fiiiiiine. Even though feeling like an outcast is my thing. I can always feel like that, if my mood wants me to. I'm controlled by my mood and sometimes it's killing me. You know, like those times, when I'm going somewhere and there a guys sitting like really far away from me and they laugh and I definetly think that they are laughting at me. It's always, I repeat, always like that. Even if I know they didn't even noticed me, it's still me they are laugting about. But hey, that means someone is talking bout me - I'm freakin famous! Lol. No, not funny.
I watched "Inside out" yesterday! (yeah, happy thoughts) I cried like 3 times while watching it, but I absolutely love that movie! Everyone should watch it. It's such a bundle of joy! I feel more optimistic after watching it. Maybe I should read "Pollyanna" today as well. I can't die from too much optimism, can I? Of course not! (optimistic thinking) Anyways, the movie was great, I went to sleep just after it and my first dream was about it. I can't exactly remember what happend, but I know, that my anger and joy kiddos had a really big fight. Or something like that. I have strange dreams, don't judge me.
Anyways, I was thinking about going to my aunts next weekend, but then I realised it will be Halloween that day! I need to find my creepy dress and make it even more creepy. Fingers crossed I can still fit in it. Maybe I should work out more this week? I should start working out. It's good for my health, but... Naaah. I'm too lazy. Maybe I'll do some stretching for my sore from work muscles, but that's probably it. I hate working out, I have no idea how I'm still not really really fat. Damn, I would love to lose few kilos, but I can't really make myself do it. I would try jogging, but if I run more than half a minute, I feel the loss of breath and I could totaly die from it. Well, maybe not die die, but I hate that feeling. I should youtube something for myself. Is there any kind of sport that lazy ass like me could do? If so, please tell me.
So there is that, I'm going back to bed, because I'm too lazy to sit on it. Omg I'm so lazy, what the hell. I'm going to the shower and then I'll do some stretching while watching tv-series or smth like that (I bet I won't).

Love you guys! x

thanks "pavotroon" for the gif. That's how I look like (except for cuteness) when I strech ;3