I'm happy

Hey guys

It's 4 am and I'm all ready for bed. actually, I'm writing this on my phone.
I've just finished work, got home, got ready for bed, but I couldnt stop thinking about this evening.
I told some guy I'm a lesbian and all evening he kept saying what a waste. like, yes, that was flattering, but that got me thinking, what if I have met my soulmate, but told him I'm not straight? I mean, I tell everyone that I'm a lesbian alot. what if one of those people told their friend (who'd be my soulmate) "dont bother with her?" like, why do I make my life so complicated?

Anyway, I really want to praise my work for today. we got hot drinks for out staff!!! how cool is that? (that's probably me, bcs I kept nagging how cold it was) . we got coffee and tea and even a kettle. I mean, show me another place where they have such cool bosses as we do? (Ok, one of them told me he read my blog, so just for the record, I really think our place is literally the best workplace in the world).
When I come to think of it, I've stayed there for 5 (almost 6) months now. And I'm still loving it. remember my other jobs? how much I grew to hate them after like the second month? I'm so glad this one was just right. I love being there, I love people I work with, it's just.... it's a place for me. I'm so glad I sent my CV to them.

I wanted to talk about something else as well.. I just cant remember what.
Oh. Everything got better. i guess. We're kind of on ok terms with my housemates, I'm kind of managing my assignments, my family doesnt call me anymore, my auntie, the one I was supposed to spend Christmas eve with, cant even pick her phone up when I call her. I got new mattress (need to test it with someone, if you know what I mean lol).

I'm happy. I'm in my bed, writing this, and I think to myself that I'm happy. I'm healthy, I have a job, I'm surrounded by people who at least can tolerate me, everything is good. this time last year I got my tattoo as well. i'm thinking about another one. I should fix this one first tho. anyway, last year I was upset because I couldnt get back home. I still cant, but you know what? at least I wont be stuck with the job I hate. i'm gonna be working during Christmas break, but I'm going to be enjoying it so much, I bet I wont even notice the holidays. although I probably wouldnt notice it anyway since I have so many assignments just after we get back to uni after this break.

But yeah, I should probably go to bed now. love you guys, I hope you're having great time xx