I mean, it might be because I'm pretty sick, but I have another theory.
It's not a secret, I suppose, that I'm a pretty stubborn kid. You know, I can be fine with most of the stuff until certain level, but when I feel like someone starts to boss me around when they have no right to do it, my bitch mood activates. And I don't mean in a good way. Like, for two days now, I've been in my room and whatever I used (chopping board, saucepans) I washed them after myself. For two days we have people over downstairs and all the takeaways and shit, you know how it goes. And now I get a message to clean up after that. Like, how often do you see me there? I'm either asleep, at uni, at work or in my room. Unless I'm in the mood to hang out with someone, then I go downstairs, but hey, I love my room.
Anyway, I actually feel really mad today. We were supposed to go to Costco today. All of us. It's a great place to shop if you want to save money and one of their friends have the membership, so, using the opportunity. Now, last times, they at least would wake me up and ask if I would want to go. Today? Nopity nope. Nothing. And then they come back and somehow I have to clean up after them. Not very nice, is it? But hey, I'm a nice person, I'm not saying it out loud. Obvs, I know they read my blog and probably curse me everytime I mention them, but honestly, I write about my life, if you don't want to be part of it, do it.
Oh, and my friends went out yesterday :)))))))) very fun for them, I assume. You know what triggered me? Whenever I wanted to go out, no one wanted to. And then when I'm working, everyone decides to go out. Lovely. I can't tell how much I'm not offended (yes, sarcasm).
At least I had great time at work. I honestly love people I work with so much. I probably would have gone mad by now if not my work. It's such a relieve from everything around me. Like, I leave my house nearly in tears how much I don't want to be here anymore, and I start my shift and I can't wipe smile from my face. So you can imagine how stressed I felt when I've realised we won't be open 4 days a week during holidays. Gotta get myself a job during those few weeks to work for those Christmas presents.
Oh, talking about them! I know girls already brought presents, but with our current relationship, I feel like it's a bad idea to do this. Like, I hate hurrying up and buying presents and now I actually know why. I don't know how the relationship can flow during this month, right? And I know it's nice to give gifts, but can I really afford being so nice? I mean, if not my blog, they'd probably wouldn't even know I don't feel good around them.
I was supposed to go to the guys today, but I'm not even sure I want now. I missed them like hell, but they haven't replied to my question when could I come by, so I just assume they're too busy for me. Not too worry, I understand. They study engineering, they're obviously really busy with assignments. Or that's just my excuse for them not being friendly. Well, as long as I have in my mind that they're my friends, I should be fine, right?
Yeah, I'm over thinking everything. Again. Sorry. I should go back to my tv-shows and food (ugh, so hungry :| )
talk to you later xx
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