To be fair, I can ruin my mood really quickly. I'm so good at this. Literally I woke up so happy and enthusiastic and ready to conquer the world and after a bit I was laying on the sofa thinking that I hate everything.
But let's not talk about this. It's too boring and dark and I don't want that. Today is a good day, the sun is shining, the duvet is drying outside and I'm feeling good. Why wouldn't I feel good, I'm alive, I'm healthy and I have friends who love me. I can't remember if I told you this, guys, but when I was sitting with my boys that night/morning, one of them kept saying how happy they are to have me as their friend and that they appreciate me so much. I felt so good after that. I haven't felt that way in a while, you know. I mean, as you know, it's really hard for me with that term 'friends'. Ech, I suppose 2013 wasn't good year for me. But look at me, three years later, I'm still here and I'm still fighting for my place under the sun. And I've started talking with my ex-best friend from time to time, so that's really nice.
Oh, talking about best friends, I'm pretty sure I'm annoying mine. For the past few days all I could talk about was me and I kept bugging her thorough the day with my messages about anything and everything. I don't know how she still talks with me, but I'm glad she does. I need someone to share everything. I was thinking of calling my aunt and telling her everything that has happened to me as well, but I mean, you guys understand the obvious reasons why I shouldn't do that. I wish I could talk with my Grandma privately, She always gives the best advice about boys and She'd never judge me.
What's more? Um... Boys came over yesterday to study. I tried staying awake with them, but I gave up around 3 am. Maths at that time is just too much for me. Even if I did understand most of it (look at me, hanging out with engineer students, I'm becoming smarter [or not]) counting and listening to them counting was just, you know, exhausting. When I woke up, which was around midday, they were in their spots, still doing maths. I asked, they said they went to sleep for a few hours and then got back to do their projects or whatever they were doing. One of them had an exam today, I'll need to ask how it went later. But let me be honest, I came down to the living room where they were and first thing that came to my mind is that they look like zombies. They barely noticed when I walked past them and said good morning.
After they went to do their stuff at the campus, I got my music on so loud I couldn't hear myself and sang for a bit. I felt like singing. Then I put my duvet for a wash and then I laid on the sofa again and now I'm sitting on the ground, drinking tea and writing this. While I was writing I laughed, I sang, I danced and I wanted to cry. I mean, I think I know what's coming up, please, ignore my mood swings.
Anyway, I think I'm tired to sit up so I'm gonna go lay on the sofa again and check facebook or something on my phone. Yeah, I have the best life ever, right?
Love you x
thanks, 'mutant-101' for it ;3
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