Father's day

Today is Father's day in England.

I admit, after loosing my Mum, I rarely thought about my Dad. I mean, it is quite obvious, isn't it? I knew my Mum way more than I knew my Dad, but while She was with me, I wanted my Dad to be by my side as well. Now the priority obviously went to Mum.
Either way, I want to wish my Dad the happiest Father's day. I still miss Him every day even if I had a pleasure to know Him for only four years and 350 days. I heard stories and He was my hero while I was growing up. Yes, I had step dad's and I love as well, but you know, my Dad, the one and only, will always be the one I love the most.
My favourite memory of Him (well, the story) is when we, as a family, would go to a party or anywhere and me and Dad would fall asleep (Mum said I'd always fall asleep on his belly) on our way home and Mum would have to drive us back, even though She didn't have a license. My Dad was a Police officer, so obviously He let Her do this. Whenever someone would tell me this story, I would imagine my Mum, trying to wake Him up, without waking me up because she didn't know what exactly to do with the car. To me, my Parents always seemed like a perfect couple. Yes, I know They weren't, but I'm a child of Theirs, obviously I believe They were perfect for Each Other.
The saddest part about this is that whenever I was sad, I would talk with Him in my room and I would tell my Mum how much I wish He'd be with us. I know it broke Her heart and I do understand it now, but honestly, even without being by our side, my Dad saved me numerous of times. He was always 'there' when I needed Him, I could always count on Him when I had no one else to support me (Like, when I got mad at Mum). I still miss Him and I still think that one day, I will create a time machine to go back to the past and save Him from whatever happened back then. I know it's childish, but I'm quite afraid that if I let my childhood go, I might forget Him. And that is an opposite of what I want to do. Since my Dad was part of my early childhood, I will always carry it in me.
I love you so so much, Dad. I am sorry I don't think of You as much as I used to, but You're still a huge part of my life. I wish I could hug You and tell You how much I miss You and how much I love You.
Happy Father's Day, my Hero <3