So, yeah, I didn't post anything yesterday. I just didn't feel like it. I did open my blog a few times, but just couldn't make myself do anything. Actually, I didn't know what to say. And I don't know what to say today. I just.... I don't know. I feel strange. I'm not sad, nooo, I'm singing the good parts of songs that my mp3 plays, but I'm not happy either. I mean, c'mon, I cleaned our kitchen area. And I did my laundry. And cleaned my room. I did a lot of cleaning today. That was never a good sign, but I'll pretend that it's not what I think it is. I do like to live in a clean area, so, of course, I did it because of that, right? Right? Oh, it's so hard.
I really want to bake something. Like, really badly. I always cheer myself up by making pie or something like that, but I'm really lazy to walk to Tesco or Lidl to buy what I need. And while we're on the buying topic, I need to save as much money as I can, since I have no idea if I'll have work by the end of this year. When you think about it, it's 41 day left. Not that far, as it looked like before. I couldn't even notice how quickly November has went through. Everything is happening so fast!
So, the #squad just texted about going out. Damn, I love spending time with those bitches, but I'm working. Actually, that is just an excuse. To be really really honest, I don't want to go clubbing or drinking. Not that I'd be tired, please, I can pull all nighties and still be energetic if I really wanted to, but... ok, I don't know what to write after but. I just don't want, ok? And I'm planning on ignoring any texts for me about this going out because there are few people who has the ability to drag me out anyways. I'm just not in the mood, ok? I'd rather stay home with hot chocolate, some tv-series or good music and something else to do. I feel bored. And still I don't want to go buy stuff for the pie. Maybe it's the dish washing that I hate afterwards. Not that it would be hard, but it annoys me. Yes, there is hot water, which we didn't have back in Lith, but I still hate it. Especially when after baking a pie, there is baking tray that I need to wash separately. Anyways. What was I on about?
Oh, yeah, Christmas time! New Year! It comes so quickly. I can't wait for holidays, even though I'm still not sure what I'll do on them. Number one, of course, is going back to Lithuania, to see my family and probably cry my eyes out when I'll have to leave. Number two would be to stay here and work my ass of so I'd have something to live from. Number three... Number three would be go to my Godmothers place, or her sisters (auntie, living in March). But you know what? If I had another choice, they would still be the last one. Apparently the rumours about me, not being able to nanny her child went way overboard. Like, she told her mother, that is my grandmas friend, that I couldn't keep an eye on her son and "forgot" to tell the part where I had to do my assignments and I needed some quiet time. So yeah, in the end, I was the bad one, because poor boy had to wake up at half six and go to nanny's place. Well, you know what, I got a flu being at that place. So, yeah, apparently, that part of my family loves me when there is something out of it for them. Thank you, it really makes me feel better.
Anyways, my sun and stars, I'm gonna stop here and rest a bit before work x
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