I am, I'm not denying it. I love when people compliment my attractiveness, I love when I hear someone saying I'm hot, beautiful, gorgeous. I don't say 'ah, don't lie', because I know they're not lying. I always say 'thank you' for a compliment, because I like to be recognised. I'm proud of how I look like. My Parents were beautiful People, so no surprise I'm beautiful as well.
What's my point? I don't know. I just felt like reminding you guys how narcissistic I am. I got a lot of compliments yesterday and I was enjoying it.
I guess my problem with it is because I know I'm beautiful, I can't be relaxed around new boys I meet (I'd insert girls as well, but I haven't met any cute girls recently) because I always think that they're talking with me just because they wanna get laid. There, I said it. I always think that the only reason boys are talking to me is because they want to get laid.
And now you obviously thought about my boys. I never asked, but I'm pretty sure that when we met, others were pretty sure I'd get on with the lithuanian one. Idk, I might be wrong, but that's what I thought anyway. Although I can't say I haven't thought about my friends that way as well. I mean, we all wander sometimes who out of our friends we would fuck, right?
I've texted them yesterday. I told them I have my Thursday off and I'd really like to go over to theirs, because I've missed them so much. To be fair, since I haven't seen them in such a long time and none of them ever asked me what am I up to, I feel a little bit upset about it. It's because I'm not sure if they've missed me as much as I missed them. Like, I know this sounds desperate or whatever, but I've spent most of my first uni year with them. I get attached quickly. I mean, I know I'm not the best friend material to hang around, but still, it would be nice to be remembered from time to time.
Ok, no, I don't want to go into this anymore. Let's talk about me again. Even though this whole blog is about me (see, narcissist). It's Saturday and I have two jobs to attend to. I haven't been waitressing in a while, so it's going to be quite fun. Four hours there, then going to the club where I'm probably going to be on the door again. I'll forget how to be behind the bar if that goes on lol. No, I don't mind, I mean, I'm just sitting down and charging people for coming in. It's so easy. I mean, it's a bit cold sitting there, but I have warm clothes. And while we're at it, I don't know what to do tonight. Obvs at the restaurant I want to wear a skirt, because that's appropriate attire, but a skirt on the door is going to be a nightmare because it's going to be so cold. I really consider taking my trousers in my bag and just change at work. I'm not sure :((
I might finish here. I'm listening to Ariana Grande and somehow, I really like her songs. Makes me feel good about myself. Gosh I love myself today. I'll probably be shit at putting makeup on myself today :|
love you to the moon and back and to the moon again xx
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