Yes, I know, I know I haven't posted in a while. I don't even have an excuse apart being lazy. Or maybe I was just not in the mood to talk? Oh well, either way, sorry. Now I'm here ;3
I think the last time I wrote here was when guys were over, right? Well, they're gone now. Gosh, the last one was gone on the Monday night. That's quite some time from now since it's Friday. Yeah, I did abandon my blog ;/
I don't know where to start, to be honest. There is so much and at the same time, nothing to tell. You're probably interested how was my week with guys. Well, it was nice. Awesome. Idk, I really liked to have some company in the house. Like, it's much better than being alone, but then again, last two days were pretty much as if I was alone anyway. It was only one of them left at my house (because believe it or not, others have jobs lol) but he spend literally all the time on his laptop. I joined him on watching tv-series, but we didn't talk much. I don't know how to express myself, but I enjoyed sitting besides him doing nothing. Like, I don't know, he's that kind of friend where you can just sit quietly and it's still nice. But one thing is still bothering me. I mean, I'm pretty sure I'm exaggerating everything, but I think he thought I'm clingy. Why? Because I was trying to get a pillow from him and he pulled it to his side and I leaned on him and the way he pushed me back and said 'don't' wasn't very nice. It actually hurt, not even emotionally, but physically. But then again, we carried on watching show as if nothing happened.
And then a few hours before he was supposed to leave we were sitting in the living room, just chilling, as always, and he started talking about spiders. Like, maybe he just wanted to tease me before leaving for month, I don't know. And while I was frowning (because spiders are disgusting) he laughed. That would have been fine, but he asked me about my future, like, what are my plans with my degree after I finish uni and when I said I'm not sure, he started laughing that I'm gonna be in a debt for my whole life and I'm not even sure why I picked this degree. I don't know why I didn't defend myself and said that I love English language and that' why I want to study it, but I just sat there quietly while he was mocking me. It actually hurt pretty badly. Like, I'm at that stage in life where I've realised that I didn't plan my future even for a bit. I live in this moment and I'm fine with it. But as I was talking with my other friend, he asked what I imagine doing in like 5 years. I honestly have no answer to that. I didn't even think about getting as far as I am now. And when someone laughs about me, not thinking about the consequences of what I chose really hurts. It's not like I'm the only one who will have this degree and if he doesn't know what I can do in my field, doesn't mean he can laugh about it. But yeah, it hurt pretty badly and I went all quiet after that, I got into my phone. I;m not sure if he realised how much he hurt me by laughing but after that he tried to make me laugh by talking about spiders again. I wasn't having any of it, but the thing is, when someone starts to tickle me, I can't not laugh Even if I hit him and said to not touch me, he still did.
I thought I'm gonna be crying when he'll leave, but honestly, after what he said I was glad he is gone. Living with him for ten days was a bit too much. And I was wondering what would it be like to live with guys. Fun, but horrible at the same time. But yeah, I didn't even hug any of the guys goodbye. I kind of regret it, but hey, they didn't deserve a hug. Hugs are special.
Anyway, I'm talking about this too much. I don't want to remember it (even though I think about it so much every day). Next topic. I've downloaded Aion again. It's like the coolest game ever and I spent last two or three days playing it. My friends suggested downloading Tera and I did, but I wasn't very impressed by its controls. I like Aions better, much more comfortable. I wish I had someone to play aion with, since it's getting kind of boring to be there by myself, but I suppose everyone has their own stuff to do.
Oh, right. Our shower broke. Like, lol, I went in there the day before yesterday and I turned it on, but no hot water was running, I went to check the meter and apparently I ran out of gas to have warm water. Well, not a problem. But then guess what. I get back to the bathroom to turn the water off and... I can't. literally. I turned the handle back and forth but it did nothing. I called Sulets and they told me to turn the water off. I told them I'm not doing that because I need water for food and drinks. They suggested to leave it during the night, because they couldn't get anyone to come there the same day. I was like 'yeah, no problem, either way it's not me who's paying the bill, right?' and they got more concerned and somehow, magically, they got someone to come in the same day. They turned the shower off, but they said we defo need the new one. So yeah, I went to the office yesterday to get my gas card topped up and they told me to wait for them to get the new shower. I smiled, obviously, and nodded, and said it's fine. What else could I do. But now every day I have to take a bath (not that I complain, I love it) but that's just wasteful. I use so much water. Not that I'm paying for it, but still.
But yeah, that pretty much sums up how my life is going on here. My neighbours are still really loud, especially in the mornings, when I'm trying to sleep, I still have shit ton of spiders here and yeah, pretty much that's it. I can't believe it's almost a month when I'm here. It feels like a week or something.
By the way, I finally topped up my phone, so I can text now. Awesome ;3
And I'm gonna stop here, I've noticed that this became quite a long post. Talk to you soon (I hope)
Love you lots and lots xx
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