Feeling a bit blue...

Actually, no, I don't. I fee freaking happy at this very moment. It's just my hair that decided to make me blue. Ugh, I love this colour. Don't mind roots, I think that's my natural colour (yeah, I'm not sure, cuz I can't really remember what's my natural looks). I really really love the way I look right now. Like, the blue hair I have is the best. I was aware that I look good in blue clothes, but blue hair? Oh, fantastic! I would totally like to keep them this way for a bit longer. Maybe just to piss off my Godmother, that I won't see for a long time, apparently. You know why? Because I can't get a day off on a fucking Christmas Eve or fucking Christmas! I asked if I can take a day off at 24th, at least, so I could go to my relatives and to quote the answer "If it's your shift, you're working". Wow, thanks, guys.

So, yeah, you can see why I am a little blue at this point. My plans on going back to Lithuania for holidays was ruined and at least having any quality time with my family were crushed because of £4/h! If not my fucking rent, I'd love to quit my job and live on my savings. I finally sent that letter I needed so I might get some support from my country. It's still not enough to pay my rent and buy food, so, yeah, job is priority, even if I hate it at the moment. Either way, as optimistic as I can be, if I won't go to my relatives for Christmas, this means I won't have to buy anyone presents. I mean, #squad will be at their hometown, lith friend is going back to lith, so I'll be all alone in Leicester to celebrate Jesus Christ Birth! Woah, sounds so awesome. Maybe it's a good thing I'm not much of a Christian. Although it will be the first time being all alone on this occasion. I mean, last year was pretty sad because Mum wasn't with us, but this time, no one will be with me. It's so sad, when I get to think about it more than I let myself on daily basis. I try not to think about it, honestly. It will be usual day for me, nothing special apart knowing that I sent my dear brother, sister and cousin presents. I hope they will like it cuz I'll probably spend all of my money on it. I have a present for my Bro, since he said specifically what he wants, but my cousin and my sis... ugh, girls. I might buy sister a doll or something like that, since she's just 2years, but the hardest part will be my cousin. She is ten and she doesn't act like a ten years old. Like, she's addicted to facebook, instagram, selfies and stuff. Gawd, I would say she's like 15 or smth! Anyway, I think she'll get some lush stuff that one of my #squad girls will have to pick for me. I saw little girls going to that store so it should be fine, right? Right? Ugh it is sooooo hard to pick presents to kids! I wish I was a kid, so I wouldn't need to worry about buying stuff. I'd just make a card or something, colour it a little and here you go, the present! And when you start to think that we'll have a Secret Santa in #squad... It breaks my heart. Well, my purse, to be more specific. I'm not so loaded as these guys and I'll feel bad if someone will get me something fancy while I'm planning on giving them something small but meaningful. So, yeah. Can I ask our dear Santa to make me rich as fuck so I could make everyone around me happy?
Ok, again I'm getting depressed about stuff that should worry my future-self. My present self should be happy as fuck she did her assignment (even if it's shit), that she dyed her hair and that she has really good friends. Happy as hell! So, yep, love you, love myself, love everyone, wish me luck on getting through these 32 days until next year.

see ya x

gif from "glow-lovely" thanks for sharing it x I have an urge to make everything as blue as possible at this time. I love blueeee! ;33