I'm not gonna write a long post i just really need to say this somewhere to get it out of my chest.
I used to hate myself so much I couldnt look in the mirror. I used to cry because I thought I was ugly and fat. I was told by my crush I'm fat and he told me I'm not normal.
It took me almost four years to get to the point where I can love myself again. Step by step and I'm feeling great about myself. I love the way I look with or without make up, I love my body (maybe not every inch of it, but most of it) and I'm confident. But we were hanging out yesterday with other students and I was told I look like a girl who would listen to Britney Spears or Katy Perry. So basically that typical slutty white girl. And I felt so... empty? Yeah, probably a right word. Like all I was taken for was my appearance. Not who I am inside. But then I thought about it more and I've realised that it's actually accurate. I mostly talk about myself, but you know why? Because I hate being wrong and when I talk about myself, I'm never wrong. I'm not sure what I should tell people I barely know, what topics I should choose to start this new friendship and just... I just dont know how to make friends. I fell inlove with my outside, but I destroyed that 'not normal' funny girl I used to be. I'm not even sure I have a character anymore.
Have a lovely evening, thanks for reading x
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