Basic white (insert the ending here)

You know, I wrote down here how much I have changed during the first year here. Now I feel how much more I have changed during second.
First year was  that cute naive little potato with a confidence of a rabbit. Now I keep hearing I'm becoming a basic white girl (although I say bitch instead of girl). The only thing that separates me from being one is that I don't have bunch of friends whom I would go out to daily.
Let me confess real quick, I have too little time to tell you all the details from Paris, I probably never will, but I just want to get it out of my chess, because friends seems to not be enough. I sent my first proper sexy picture via snapchat. You know, like the bra and sexy pose and stuff like that. The problem was, I fucking enjoyed sending it. I enjoyed the response I got and it got me a bit addicted to the attention I got because of it. It was one person whom I know for a long time (even though didn't talk since I came to uk) and I couldn't decide whether I did it because I wanted to get my revenge or I wanted to do it to see if it could work what didn't work before.
There were episodes where I caught myself thinking about a boy who has a girlfriend. About how I don't care that there is someone in his life, that I want him to be mine. I'm so confident I don't care about someone elses relationship. A year ago, I would have walked away and be ashamed I like someone who has their significant other. Now? Now I'm thinking about the ways I could get what I want. Bitch? Bitch. I know it's wrong, but honestly, I couldn't care less.

Anyway, gotta go, still love my blog even though I abandoned it xx