I don't trust people, everyone looks suspicious until I decide otherwise. It's really hard, but this has to do with my heart being broken by people close to me. Even then I learned to forgive them (what kind of stupid am I?) but the result - I'm more careful about people I surround myself with.
And now I found someone I kinda love messaging to. I haven't seen him in real life, I haven't skyped or even talked to him, but I feel great. We sent some selfies to each other, but when I talked to my friends about it, they said he sounds too good to be true. They said I should ask for his social media, but he says he doesn't like using it because it reminds him of his ex too much. My friends said it's a lame excuse. I'm so confused.
I feel like I can trust him, you know? But whenever I talk to my friends, I start having doubts and I'm not sure if I should try and start trusting people again or should I stay suspicious until proven otherwise? I should probably talk to my life advisors - my aunties to see what they think about this. But then again, I really dont want to get their expectations up - literally my family thinks I'm going to end up alone so whenever I even mention guys name they're like 'OK TELL US EVERYTHING WHEN ARE YOU GETTING MARRIED?' or smth like that.
I'm freaking 20 now and I still haven't had someone to call my boyfriend/girlfriend. When 15 year old kids already have like 3-4 relationships. I'm not saying it's good, but you know what? My 20year old as is freaking jealous.
Anyway, I just wanted to get it out there, if you have any advice for me, pleeeeease tell me. I'm really confused :(
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