You have no idea how much I laughed yesterday because of some fuckboy. Like, everyone who knows me knows I have a pretty dirty mind. Like, seriously, I could probably make anything sound dirty.
I know that with this it is really easy to mistake me for someone who would sleep around, have one night stands and just, you know, be naughty (oh my God that word makes me laugh). I have people telling me they can't believe I'm a virgin and I kinda see why. Like, you guys know I don't really try to hide the fact I've never had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
But yesterday... oh my Gosh yesterday was the best. I wish I could put screenshots up here, but it's way too much to hide (like names and stuff). But to sum it up, one of my ex-colleagues started messaging me. Like, we chat from time to time, nbd, but yesterday was just too much. He was talking about chilling together and it was highly confusing because we all know what chilling means these days. I even asked him does he mean chill chill or like netflix and chill and he said whatever I want. So I told him my housemates are in the house, if he wants to chill chill we're watching a movie and he's more than welcome to join us. And then he started saying it would be awkward to sit there when he only knows me and he'd rather be only with me like, in my room. Honestly, when I got that message my abs hurt from all the laugh (oh, plus my besties comments, because she obvs got ALL the screenshots). I said it's either chilling in a group or nothing and he kindly said no. And then like 10-15 mins later said I still haven't responded if I wanna chill with him. By that point he started to be annoying af so my friends helped me to finish the conversation and we've decided to make some brownies to pass the time. Somewhere in the middle of eating our dessert he messaged me again but it was just past all the fun time and my bestie was in bed at that time, so boring. But he did say it's the last time he's inviting me to chill. Hm, good.
Anyway, the moral of this is that he kept reminding me I had dirty mind and that he was sure I'm a naughty girl and stuff like that. Disgusting. Maybe that's why I can't find normal guys. I either attract weirdos, fuckboys or get a normal guy to ignore me (yes, my Skype friend, I am talking about you).
I'm 20 already. It's getting kinda sad to know I've never had this so called significant other. I mean, it's me to blame, but at the age of 20 my Mum already had me and my Aunties had my cousins. What have I accomplished by this age? Went half way through my University course and got myself into 27k debt for studies. Sounds like a dream, right?
Anyway, gotta go now. Love you still a lot xx
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