I wanted t write my blog, but I really couldn't think of anything to write about. Plus, with all this heat it's hard to really concentrate on anything, you feel me?
Anyway.
I still don't have any specific topic to talk about, but you know me, I'm just gonna write whatever comes to my mind.
First of all, two more weeks and I'm going to move. It's going to be so... exhausting? Exciting? Strange? I don't know how to describe it. I'm just hoping everything will go smoothly as expected. Like, you do know I really struggled with my rent money and shit like that, but I figured it out for this month. Somehow. But I won't talk about it until everything is over so the karma wouldn't hit me. But yeah, I'm kind of excited for this as well. I'll have to spend all day moving and cleaning my room and decorating my new room and then just... getting familiar with my new house. It's going to be sooooo strange. I can't wait. I kind of need someone to help me move, because I have tons of stuff, but then again, since I don't have a car, I'm gonna use my luggage with wheels so I wouldn't have to carry it all the way. Because this new place is like 10 minutes away from where I live now. So... yeah, that's going to be a lot of walking. Anyone wants to help me and has a spare bag with wheels? let me know ^-^
Oh, right. Can we talk about boys for a minute? I know I talk about them a lot, but for the past few days it's been a mess in my head. I think my brain is becoming more and more desperate for someone by my side, because apparently, I now can't tell whether I have one big crush on specific someone or I divided my crushing abilities to few people. Like, All of them are out of my league (or they are out of mine haha... ok, I'm lame, sorry) but then again, I realised I have a habit to fall for someone I can't have. well, it's not the first time, is it. Anyway, I'm having these weird-ass-dreams where someone is taking me on a date and then another guy shows up and then I'm confused which one I like more and then I wake up. Maybe that's why I've been sleeping for at least 10 hours every night (tho that's probably because I go to sleep around 4). Anyway, boys. So much trouble, right?
Yeah, about my sleep. I fucked up my sleeping schedule, but since I'm working evenings, everything is ok. What annoys me more is that I don't eat balanced food. Like, I wake up, I have coffee and toasted bread, then before work I eat some boiled eggs or more toasted bread. Then I come back from work and have tea with tortilla wrap with cheese. Carbs, carbs everywhere! Ok, I had pasta for breakfast today, so that's something different, but you see my point, right? Can you see any meat in my meals? No? That's right, no meat. I'm basically a vegetarian now. God damn that poor life. Though as long as I get to eat something, it's fine. Obvs, I could be eating at work, but the only time we're alowed to eat is at 6 pm and I'm not hungry then. So, yeah, if anyone wants to feed me something more interesting than what I've mentioned, please, pm me, we're gonna arrange that date (hahahaha, spoil me please).
You guys do know I'm an attention whore, right? And that's why I absolutely love working at the club. I get so much attention it makes me want to hide, but then again, it boosts my self-esteem so much. But yeah, talking about attention, when I get it from wrong people, it's annoying. And the people I would love to get attention from just ignore me. Fuckers, right?
OMG THAT REMINDS ME. A few months back (now you'll think I'm a narccissist, which I kind of am) I was looking at the mirror in the bathroom (no clothes obvs) and I really hated what I saw. I'm not talking about belly thing, I always hated it. But I was looking at my thighs and butt and it was all cellulites and stuff like that (yeah, I have a lot of that, fuck me, right?) but now, I looked at it again yesterday and OH MY GOD. It has changed so much, I could barely recognise it! (I'm bragging about my ass, that's like the most stupid thing I was ever proud of). All the walking totally repaid itself and I'm so happy ;3 now if it would help to fix my belly, it would be awesome. I mean, I didn't even put much effort in my legs. And obvs I'd need to eat healthier, which, we all know, is nope from me. I could start excercising, but hey, who has time for that, right?
I think I should stop here, right? I mean, before I say too much haha
love you guys, talk to you later xx
p.s. I'm pretty sure I won't be writing anything tomorrow, because that day, but hey, we all know I'm unpredictible, right?
I'm quite happy today so I'd love to dance like that as well.
The problem is, I hate this day. Because I was really happy three years ago and then in the morning the most horrible thing in my life happened. I can't let myself be happy on this day. Ever. Sorry.
I hope you guys have a great day, tho x
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