Ok, so, yesterday I didn't post anything because a)I woke up pretty late b)I went to town to get some needed stuff c)my girls had a sleepover and I didn't bring my laptop with me.
You are probably wondering why the fuck I went to the town when I'm poor as fuck. Honestly, I needed like one thing from poundland, but I can't just go to that store and buy one thing. So I spent two pounds there. And then we went to wilkos (or however that shop is called) and I bought more kind of needed stuff that was quite cheap. And then, of course, Iceland, where I spend five pounds. At least I have 3 frozen pizzas, strawberry jam (I'm planning on making a pie for Easter break) and garlic bread. Yeah, I know, not a good idea to spend my savings (what am I kidding, this money should have went on my rent).
Anyway, during our shopping time girls suggested that we should have a girls night. Now, truth to be told, I love this kind of things. Especially when one of my girls previously said she hates girls nights. I was pretty sure it will be something like dinner, manicures, pedicures, face masks and funny stories about something, but instead, we had a dinner (which was pretty delicious) and then we ended up watching Drag Queen show for the rest of the evening. Sorry, all of the evening. It was so not what I expected. And it broke my heart when one of my boys messaged me saying he's bored. To be honest, I actually started to think of an excuse to go and keep him company, but I don't get many chances of being with my girls (and I still had hopes for manicures or at least pillow fight)... Anyway, I ended up staying with them instead of going to the guys. But again, honestly, I kind of regret that.
I'm not saying my girls are not as good as my guys, no. They all have their pros and cons. I'm just saying that at least with boys there is always some kind of interaction or jokes or something. What happened yesterday? We ate while watching that show, then we went to her room, I ended up on the floor (where, btw, I slept) and I played with my phone all the time because none of us said a thing. Just that show that kept going on. I'm pretty sure I was the first one to fall asleep because I was so bored. I thought about going home, but you know me, I love my friends too much.
I saw an yik yak today about 'how do you make friends these days?' and there was a reply that you just go to someone and start talking. I'm pretty sure that's how it worked twenty, thirty years ago because it was common, but tbh, if someone just come up to me saying they wanna hang out, I'd probably just go away. I mean, I want to have as many friends as possible, but I have no idea how to make them. I mean, I met my guys due to one of them living in the same building as me, but that was just a lucky thing, I guess. So, yeah. I have no idea how to make friends and I'm really trying not to let the idea 'I'm gonna end up all alone' in my head. Maybe it's the stress that causes me to be anxious about everything. Stupid money. Without it, world would be at peace.
Peace out, babes x
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