How are you this really wonderful, sunny day? Good? I'm glad to hear that ;3 I woke up 20 minutes ago and here I am, writing my entrie.
To be honest, the title of this post is about awkwardness because I was sitting in front of the screen without the though of what to write today. Yeah, nothing happened, I was working yesterday, so... you know. Nothing special. Even nothing not special to talk about. I called my family right before I opened blog tab. They are preparing for Christmas Eve so hard. My auntie is running around from one flat, to the other (because she and my bro and sis lives in one and my Grandma and Grandpa lives in other one), to the town and back, making sure everything is prepared. I do believe it is really hard for her this year. It doesn't matter that she has another sister, my other aunt, and my uncle by her side. Like all of them are unhappy with her and even if I should be like that too, I simply can't. Because I know how much trouble my guardian goes through to make everything perfect. Oh, right. I'm talking about her small kids, my brother and sister. They still need taking care of, so my auntie had two choices. One, get a nanny. But since it costs a fortune, it's not that good of an idea. Our Grandma kept them safe for a while. Damn, she even raised me. My Grandma is one hell of a woman, I can tell you this. And now she is really really sick. And whenever my auntie asks her to keep an eye on my brother and sister, everyone around hisses about how she doesn't take care of their Mother. I mean, yeah, it's not good for Grandma to do anything at the moment, but knowing the fact, that my auntie does everything else (for now, she will do Christmas Eve dinner, she will clean both flats, decorate them and so on)... well, it is not easy. And she told me today, that my other aunt was around (she lives in a city next to us), she and Grandma went to the graveyard to light a candle for my Parents. When my Guardian Auntie asked if everything is alright, they said yeah, of course. She went there today just to see that nothing was alright. Obviously, she is a perfectionist, so I imagine it wasn't as bad as she described, but it still made me feel guilty. I should be the one to take care of that. And I'm so damn thankful that she takes care of it too. Well, yeah, it is her Sister and Brother-in-law, but still. With all the errands she has to take care at our flats, she still manages to visit one place that she is not obligated to. I love her so much. She is the best, seriously. We would all be lost without her.
Anyway, I practically wrote totally different thing than I planned so the title doesn't make sense now. But oh well, does any of my titles makes sense, honestly?
Love you guys, thanks for being with me, it means a lot x
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