Alot happened yesterday. I feel awful after I heard about someones break-up. I mean, I have no idea what it means to be left out of the relationship, but I do know quite well how it feels to be heartbroken. So yesterday I was thinking about it alot. Like, all day while at work. I can't remember how did I got out from my depression though. Was it the books? I think it was books and computer. I was a lonely kid at that time. Kid, yeah, right. Oh well, I was addicted to my virtual life. Maybe it was the main reason that helped me get through it?
Actually, right now I was thinking not about past, so, sorry. I was thinking about this book by Eleonor H. Porter. I told you about it before, it's called "Pollyanna". The main thing in that book is that you must be happy despite the fact that it seems like everything is falling apart. In this book, there was an old lady who would always whine about her food. She couldn't get up from bed, so someone always needed to bring her something. And she would always whine that it wasn't what she wanted today. And then one day Pollyanna brought her two meals instead of one. This lady was so surprised. She didn't whine that day, if I remember correctly. And after that the lady would always ask everyone for Pollyanna to come and be with her. I can't remember the whole part, but the point is, let someone help you and don't pretend like you don't have anyone around you. Ok? Understood? Read the damn book, it's a goldmine.
By the way, yesterday I realised how strongly my pms works. Oh my, it works like a hurricane. One minute I was laughing at my stupid co-workers and then one of them said something that included words "Your Mother". Wow, I was furious at the next moment. I was ready to fight, honestly. But I didn't want to cause any problems with others, so I just did what I do the best, I started ignoring any ignorant prick that would talk with me. Thank God it was the end of my shift, because I had to take a few deep breaths while going home so I wouldn't start crying. Yeah, babes, I can start crying when I'm angry. Basically, each stronger emotion makes me wanna cry. The same goes with happiness. If I'm too happy, I start to cry and become sad. That's how my brain works, deal with it. But have you ever seen me being sad for more than a few hours? I can't be sad. It's not my nature. I've been working on my happiness way too much to let something ruin it. Please do the very same thing. Work towards your happiness, not your sadness. It may be harder, but it is so worth it.
xo xo, Gossip Girl.
Wait, wrong show.
love you guys so much x
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