First off, I had a dream about my Parents. More of my Dad, but it was Their wedding day. It was a beautiful dream, really. I enjoyed that I could have been a part of it. Anyway, it was mostly about my Dad. Maybe it's cuz everyone is talking about the upcoming Father's day, I've started thinking about it as well. To be honest with you all, when my Mum passed away, I spent most of my time thinking about Her and just from time to time I would remember to talk to my Dad as well. And before that I would always talk to Him. He was my Hero, He was someone I've missed so very much, even though I didn't really get a chance to know Him (or at least can't remember our almost 5 years together).
So after my dream I woke up feeling terribly guilty. I love my Parents so very much and I always will, but I had a feeling that my Dad forgot how much I love Him as well. I mean, I do talk to my Mum more, so as my Auntie said, maybe He got a bit jealous and decided to get my attention by giving me this dream. Also, in Lithuania, Father's day is the first Sunday of June, which means I'm going to be a day late to go over there and visit Him. I mean, I definitely will go, it's basically the first thing I want to do when I'm back.
But anyway, as I was talking with my bestie about it, and she told me I shouldnt feel guilty about this at all. Like, I know I shouldn't, but I still do. It's my Parents we're talking about. People who gave me life, who gave me everything I have Today. I can't even express how much I'm grateful for having Them as my Parents. Even if it's just in my mind, They have helped me more than you can possibly imagine. I can't imagine how different I would have been. I feel like They can be proud of me and I feel like They are. I love my Parents so much and whenever I hear about people complaining about theirs, I feel really bad for them. I wouldn't change my Parents for anything in the world. I just wish you all had a chance to meet Them. They were amazing people and for me, They will always be.
What I was trying to say with this post to myself, even if it looks like you love another one of Them more, you Love them Both enough <3
And for the summertime thing, I am so very very happy that the summer is finally here! I am so very very happy I'll get to see my family in just a couple of days. I am so very very happy I have a life like this. I'm just happy. And that's a good thing :3
