Muoooorniiiing ;3

Mooooorninnnng~
or should I say good day?

Anyway, hello ^-^

I feel great today. Let me tell you why. If I'm not wrong (because I have a terrible memory for dates) today is a day when my Parents would celebrate their 20th Wedding Anniversary. How cool is that?

 Even though I woke up in a cold room, I woke up with a good mood. Like, I had a good night's sleep and everything looks great today. I don't know how long will this last but I hope I'll get to the evening, at least. I'm going to my boys in the evening so I'm sure they'll keep me in a good spirit.

What else... I finally got to do my nails. I've been thinking about it for days now but I couldn't be bothered. Like, seriously, it takes concentration and time and I'm just not in that place right now.
Oh, that reminds me (I don't know how) today is Fresher's fair at my uni. We were supposed to go there with girls but one of them is still sleeping so I'm pretty sure we're just not going to go. Although all of us needs to go to the town for shopping. I know I know! It's raining and no one wants to walk in the rain but c'mon, we're not sugar cubes, we'll be fine, right? There is so much to do. I actually cleaned my room today and I took the trash out, I don't know why girls are so sleepy today. I'm so energized.

But despite all of it, I have nothing more to tell you. I'll talk to you later x

love you guys soooo much x

thank you, 'babydaddyseries' for this gif ;3

Mini house party

Hey guys ;3

So today finally my housemates are here. They finally moved in. And I have to be honest, not all of it is rainbows and sparkles.

Like, yes, I am really glad that I finally have someone to say 'good morning' to, but I just realised that I haven't talked with them in a long time and personally I do feel a little bit awkward around them. I'm sure it will pass, but for now, yeah, a little bit strange.
Maybe I just got really used of being all by myself with all my stuff everywhere. I knew it wasn't permanent, but I kind of thought it's going to be fine with some of it. Like, guys, my room is so tiny I can barely fit myself in it and they want me to keep all of my shoes in here and I really, like, really don't have space for it. I could put it in my wardrobe, but it's filled with stuff like my essays, papers, documents, christmas decorations and bags. I have no space there. And if I understood correctly, they want to walk around the house with the shoes on. Like some American people. No, I hate that. I love walking in my socks or my slippers. That's why I don't understand why I should keep my shoes upstairs. That's so not making any sense to me. I might compromise to keep one or two pairs of shoes downstairs because that's basically all I use.
Ok, yeah, if I'm honest, shoes were my main concern. Everything else was pretty much bearable. I might need another mirror, but that's not essential. I defo need some stocking boxes to keep my bits and bobs in my room, but all in all, everything is kind of ok. I think.

We went shopping today. Like, for some house stuff and stuff we personally use or share. I bought two bottles of Vodka and I'm so not sharing any of it with anyone (ok, maybe my boys, because let's face it, I love drinking with them, but then again, we will have to be drinking at mines than and I'm sure we'd rather just stay at theirs). It cost me like 40 quid for those two bottles, but meh, That's my pre-drinking from now on. I spent a lot of money today, to be fair. I didn't think I will, but I did and I suppose that's why I haven't been feeling well after our little trip to the store. I don't know, something is not right.

Boys came to visit today. Oh I miss them so much I nearly cried from happiness when I saw them two.  They had to leave after like an hour but still, some quality time with them. Well, not that it was just three of us, one of my housemates had her friends over so it was a mini house party. We played 'Cards against humanity' and then we had some takeaway and then I just wanted to go to bed. I came to my room, closed the door, played some music and cleaned up a bit. I'm gonna be spending way more time in here than I was before girls moved in.

But there is obviously a good side of my girls coming back. It's more likely I'll have someone to go shopping with or talk to when I'll want to. And we're gonna share some food, so obviously it's going to be a bit cheaper (I hope). Plus, I do missed them. Now that I think about it, I'm not sure we spent much time just three of us, but hey, now we're going to have a lot more time together. Tho I don't think that with our other group of friends we're going to do everything together.

Ech, I'm nagging again. It's probably because I'm tired, I didn't get enough sleep for the past two days. I will talk to you soon xx

love you x

gif from 'slverlining' blog, thank you ;3

Answers

So I found this on Tumblr and I really want to answer all of them, so, if you want to know more about me, read through :3

No limit

• 1.Kissed a girl? Yep
• 2.Kissed a boy?Yep
• 3.Had sex in public? Nope
• 4.What’s your religion? I'm baptised but I don't really believe in God
• 5.What does your URL mean? That I really love pies and I wish I could elect them as a president
• 6.Reason you joined tumblr?Gifs
• 7.Do you have any nicknames?I suppose? Judy, Judith, Vegita (oh those boys)
• 8.Do you like bubble bath?Yeeeeeesss~
• 9.Kissed in the rain? No
• 10.Dyed your hair? yep
• 11.Soup or salad? soup
• 12.Vegetable or meat?meat
• 13.Go out drinking? yep
• 14.Smoke cigarettes? tried, didn't like it
• 15.Smoke weed?tried, haven't felt a thing
• 16.Do any hard drugs?nope
• 17.Have you had sex today? nope
• 18.Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? yes
• 19.The relationship between you and the person you last texted? friends
• 20.Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? yes
• 21.Skipped doing homework to play a video game? oh yes. Sims are for life.
• 22.Tried to commit suicide? no, but I thought about it a lot.
• 23.The last time you felt broken? last week
• 24.Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? I don't lie how I feel. If I'm broken inside, I won't be laughing around. I'll tell everyone I don't feel too good.
• 25.Do you have a Boyfriend/Girlfriend? No, unless it's to keep certain people away.
• 26.Do you have Long hair OR short hair? It's medium, but I prefer to say long. Especially when I had short hair a few times.
• 27.First thing you notice to a guy/girl? If they're skinny.
• 28.Do you sing in the shower? Sometimes, when I'm certain no one can hear me.
• 29.Do you dance in the car? oh God Yes.
• 30.Where were you yesterday? At my Aunties
• 31.Ever used a bow and arrow? No, but I wish I will
• 32.Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? It was in the last six months, I guess?
• 33.Do you think musicals are cheesy? Not at all. AVPM for life <3
• 34.Is Christmas stressful? Yes.
• 35.Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple pie
• 36.Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?Policewoman, doctor, actress :|
• 37.Do you believe in ghosts? Yes
• 38.Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? Yepsie
• 39.Take a vitamin daily?I try to. I sometimes forget ;/
• 40.Wear slippers? Yeah
• 41.Wear a bath robe? oooh yeah
• 42.What do you wear to bed? Pyjamas - shorts and a tank top
• 43.Do you want to get married? Yes, someday.
• 44.Can you curl your tongue?Kind of haha
• Relationship preference:
• 45.How many relationships have you had? 0,5? I prefer to say it's zero.
• 46.How can I win your heart? Know when you have to be gentle and know when you have to be rough with me.
• 47.what makes a great relationship? Trust and bonding
• 48.Shy OR open?Very, super open
• 50.Religious OR non-religious? Non-religious
• 51.Caring OR non-restricting of you?uh... tough one. I love when people care for me but I'd hate to be restricted. But probably caring.
• 52.Straight edge OR non-straight edge? Straight edge
• 53.Piercings OR no piercings?Depends where. But probably no piercings.
• 54.Tattoos OR no tattoos? I don't mind either.
• 55.Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type?Party/chill type
  
  Well, this was quite fun. If you guys have any more questionnaires, comment them below and I'm gonna answer them ;3

bit of this and this

Anyway, hello my dear people :3

I hope you guys missed me. I haven't posted in a while and when I did yesterday it was a bit weird (wasn't it?) and today as well... To be fair, I honestly don't know what's happening to me.

I started drinking more. I know it's not good and I still have my rule not to drink with anyone I don't trust, but the problem is, I really want to trust my friends. My course mates and my colleagues, I really want to trust them, that's why I drink around them. And if I'm being completely honest, I enjoy drinking (which makes me sound like an alcoholic). I don't know how to explain it. You guys know I didn't like drinking too much and now I wouldn't miss a chance to drink. What's different? Am I being affected by the people I hang out with? I mean, I have friends who doesn't drink, so that shouldn't be the real problem, right? I don't even have many real problems to deal with so I'd be drowning something.

Anyway, let's not talk about my drinking problem because it's still not that much of a problem (I hope). Can we talk about something else? I still don't have a topic but I'll figure it out as I'm writing this. I guess.

Ok, yeah, I know. I was told I was grumpy last friday. Of course I was. My insides were ripping themselves apart and I wanted to set them on fire. Of course I would be grumpy if someone would tell me to 'smile' while I'm in so much pain.

No, wait, I don't really want to talk about it. Can we talk about something else? Uh... I don't really want to talk about my crushes, because I think about them way too much anyway. I don't want to talk about my depression because it's too depressing.
Can we talk about kids?

Yes. Let's talk about kids. For the past week I thought about me, telling everyone that I'm never having kids. But to be honest, the more I look around, the more I think kids are not that terrible. Obviously, I don't want kids right now, but maybe some day in like ten years. And now I'm at my aunties who has a son and I had to spent a few days with him and you know what, that made me realise that kids are a nightmare. He was screaming, he didn't listen to what was told to him and was just being a little brat (although I love him very much). There were times when I thought I couldn't be bothered with him, especially when he was shouting and screaming. I wanted to leave him in one room and just go to the other room and just, you know, leave him. Can you imagine what kind of mother I would be? Gosh, I'd be the worst.

ok, no, I really can't concentrate at the moment. I'm too distracted by everything. But to be fair, I miss writing here. I should do it more often.

gif from 'if-i-look-back-im-lost' thanks ;3

I want <...>

I don't know what's happening to me, really.
Maybe I'm just missing my friends too much. Maybe it's the autumn depression kicking in. I feel so lonely these days. I mean, I'm not even alone, I'm at my aunties and it's quite fun to talk with her about everything and anything and it's just... well, it's just better than being alone in my house.
But even now I don't feel great. I love my family, don't think anything wrong, but I'm not sure it's that kind of love that I need. I want someone to cuddle with me and I want someone to hold me and kiss me. I want relationship. But then again, I don't want to date. Like, at all. I don't want to meet new guys and go on a date, I don't want to go out at all. I just want to cuddle up next to someone and watch movies or shows. I want that. I don't want to go out, I want to stay at home and chill. I want to smoke weed and laugh with my friends, I want to live my life the fullest. Because if I can't have one person to love me unconditionally, I want to make myself as happy as I can get.
I want to change myself. I want to become different. I want to be able to make jokes with anyone, I want to be sociable, have tons of friends who would die to spend time with me. Because I know that now, I am that kind of person who people remember just occasionally. Or do I exaggerate everything? Does everything look so stupid just because I feel depressed lately? Or maybe it's just my hormones making fun of me. Either way, I want to change something in my life. That routine that I'm having is starting to annoy me so much. Maybe I need to change my hairstyle again. I don't know. I need to do something. Maybe I should get another tattoo. Or get a piercing.

anyway, I gotta go now ;) talk to you later, love you guys x

Memory lane.

You know what, I'm drunk.

And I need to talk about my ultimate crush.

I've been talking about him for the past two days. To my Godmother, to my Auntie, to my friend. And I told them how much I like him, how much he makes my day just by appearing on my dash.
My friend asked me why I like him. Like, honestly, not because he's good looking and attractive, but why, personally. And I've remembered those small things he did for me. Especially the one when it was him, me and our friend at my place and I was so pissed off because that friend commented about my weight. I had a panic attack after they left. And you know what? I remember it clearly. I came back to the room after cooling down in the bathroom and I felt it. I felt I'm gonna have a breakdown so I told them to leave. I opened the window so the cold breeze would come into the room, I took a few deep breaths and you know what my crush did? He came closer and gave me a hug. He hugged me for like half a minute, looked me into the eyes and asked if I'm going to be fine. I couldn't help but smile and nod, saying it's gonna be alright, that I just need some time alone. At that time my panic attack was about to start. He left the room, but that friend was still in it. And I remember telling him to leave and it took a few seconds for me to start catching my breath. Whenever I have a panic attack, it's hard to breathe and I can't really get airs to my lungs. And he got scared, he asked what's wrong, but I told him to fucking go and leave me alone and never, ever tell anyone about it. To be fair, if it was my crush, I would have probably avoided it. But honestly, it was a friend who pissed me off, that's why I couldn't keep myself together. I somehow had to show him how much is comment about my weight got to my brain. But anyway, he left quickly and I was sitting there, in my room, trying to breathe and talk myself out of it, scratching my neck as if that would help.
And then I looked to the window, where he hugged me and it got so much better. I could breathe again and I knew everything is going to be fine. I texted him that I'm sorry for that evening and we never talked about it again.

It's not that he's attractive, charismatic and irresistible. It's because he was always there when I needed someone to be with me. I remember having a panic attack while walking home and ending up in a big crowd. I called him and I asked him to talk to me. He talked a bit, then he gave phone to other friends, they turned the speaker on and it was so nice of all of them to cheer me up. Literally, I have the best friends in the world, I would do anything for them. But he.... well, he is just special. I can't exactly describe you why, but I feel great around him. And it would be nice if someday he'd feel the same way around me.

anyway. talk to you later, I need more wine.

and no gif because I'm lazy.

F(iretru)ck you.

Hey guys ;3

I've told you before - I love my body. I love every curve and stretch mark that I have, it's just I'm not confident enough to show it to someone.
But you know what's not fun? Saying I shouldn't be eating because I'm already fat. Me? Fat? Seriously?
Ok, you probably are wondering why I've started talking about this. In the past hour I've talked with two different people and while talking, I had my dinner. You know what both of them said? 'Oh my God stop eating, you're always eating, you're chubby already!' with a laugh afterwards. This is literally red/taboo topic to me. Especially while I'm eating. I was enjoying my meal so much and after that each bite stuck in my throat. I'm sensitive about it, ok? I know I eat alot but that's my issue to worry about, not anyone else's. How much of an asshole you have to be to tell that to a person who just made himself/herself a meal that they shouldn't be eating that.

So, yeah. The first person was not that bad, you know. She teased me one, realised what she said and changed the topic. The other person, he didn't just tell me I'm fat already, he started painting an image with his words how everything on my body jiggles with fat and he's ashamed of me. That was one of my cousins. You know what I did? I ended the conversation in the middle of his sentence and blocked him from my facebook. And I don't really care if his Mum or Dad are going to be annoyed by that, I won't let anyone tell me I'm not beautiful when I spent fucking three years trying to convince myself that I'm, in fact, very curvy and have a figure of a true woman. I don't need any negativity in my life, sorry.

Anyway. Body shaming is the worst thing you can do to me. It ruins my mood for the rest of the day and just before I picked the call from my cousin, I was ready to write a nice post here with many questions about myself. Now I'm not in a mood to do anything so I'm just going to find some documentary and go to bed, because fuck the world.

Thank you for attention, still love you all x

gif is from 'someladyparts' thanks ;3

Just something to think about

Hey guys x

I hope you're happy. I really do. I love seeing people happy.
As for me, I wasn't too happy. Don't get me wrong, everything is fine, but I just felt somehow strange. I woke up as usual, with my alarm, I had breakfast, took a shower, put my makeup one, went to work, even had a great kebab, but thorough the day I just felt like something is missing. Or maybe it's just a type of hangover.

I went out yesterday. Again. And before you start judging me, let me tell you that I didn't drink that much. I had a few ciders/beers and they weren't even usual strong. I went out with the group of awesome people (the same from Sunday) and to be fair, they all are pretty cool. Tho to be honest, it really annoyed me that it was so many of us and we couldn't be all together. You see, there was like, pairs of people. Best friends, mates and stuff like that and I was just kind of the one tagging along without my pair. So I tried going to one of the groups and realised that's not what I want, then I tried following the bigger group but I really didn't like where they were. Like, the basement of the Mosh was shit yesterday. So I just kind of spent my hours there singing to songs I knew and walking around drunk people. Now, don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with drunk people, they are adorable! But all I wanted to do was dance and I had like one or two songs for that in total. Plus, it was so freaking hot in that club I would rather stand outside, which was crowded as well. To be fair, I was so inlove with Mosh when I went there with others, but yesterday was so disappointing. Especially the part that I had to pay four pounds for the entry.
On top of that, my feet were burning from heels that I wore. I mean, I can't remember the last time I had them on, so obviously it took a while to figure out how to walk in them, but yeah, by the end of the night I just took them off and walked home barefoot. I regret that now, because my feet are really sensitive now. It was a nightmare to walk today - tho thank God for my comfortable shoes, they made it a bit better.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I liked yesterday. I haven't been out for so long and I like people I hung out with, but I suppose I'm not used to British friends anymore. I got used to my lithuanian friends. Gosh, I need my housemates here asap. I actually honestly can't wait for uni to start. It's going to be awesome year, I can feel it.

But yeah, anyway, I got back from work and I literally been laying on sofa for the past four hours. I sat up just to make myself a cup of tea, so yeah.. maybe it's the autumn. Maybe it's just my pms, that bitch should come around this time. Maybe it's just that I need to be more consistent with my vitamins or just go to the doctors and see what kind of vitamins do I need. Either way, I feel somehow empty today. Something is missing. I'm pretty sure I know what it might be, but I really don't want to think it is. Yeah, I know, that sentence was confusing.
I was watching couples walking down the street today and it was... how do I say it? Sad? Nostalgic? I don't know. But I wished I had someone by my side. I know I told you guys that I don't want to date at the moment and I don't. I just want someone I could watch tv-shows all day and cuddle and eat junk food and just enjoy life. But knowing how long it takes me to trust someone, I don't think that's really possible for any time soon. I'm gonna end up living with 30 cats, won't I?

I'm sorry I put this on you. I don't know why I think about this. I've seen what heartbreak can do to a person and I don't want that. I like how it is now. Probably.

'iclalove'

Today I can actually say 'Good Morning' and actually mean 'morning' instead of 'afternoon'

ok, so, I don't know how many of you knows, but I have a fear of phone calls in the morning. More specifically, when someone calls me while I'm asleep. It started on the morning when someone called me to tell me that my Mum has passed away. From that day, if I ever get a phone call in the morning, my heart starts to ponder and my hands start to shake.
So when my bestfriend told me she has so much to tell me, but she's back from work around 5 am (when I'm obviously asleep), I asked her to call me. I don't know why she didn't, but I found a message asking if she should. I don't know if she knows what  happens to me whenever I pick that morning call, but that was really sweet of her.


But that's not what I want to talk about. That was just to have in mind that I knew I'm going to receive a call in the morning and I think I was kind of preparing myself for it. But the best part? I had a dream about my Mum. Guys, you have no idea how much I've missed seeing Her and be able to hug Her and tell Her I love Her so much. And I did everything in that dream - I was with Her and it was the best dream I had in a while. When I woke up, I needed a minute to understand that I did, in fact, dreamt about Her, but when I did, I thought I'm going to cry. And not even from sadness, no! I was so happy She decided to visit me in my dreams. I think that was mostly because I was thinking about that morning call so much and it obviously associates with Her, so.. you know. Good times, I suppose. The most important thing, I got to spend time with my Mum and nothing can make my day better.

Anyway, I have a lot to do today. I need to go to the bank, I need to pay my rent (because for some reason I can't do it online), I really really need to clean my house and I still have work today, plus, I need to organise two calls with friends from Lithuania, so that's even more complicated.  Oh, and I need to figure out why I didn't get my full deposit back. So today is a day full of errands.
But if I'm being honest, I don't think I want to work at Sahar's. Like, yes, money is money, but will few pounds make any difference?  Like, yeah, maybe I'll be able to afford a new dress or something, but basically, all day for me is ruined because I'm working there for three hours. Idk, if I'd get to keep my tips, that would be so much better. And I was talking with other girls in one of the facebook groups and they all laughed saying that I'm being used. I mean, I understand I am, but what can I do?

Ech, guys, at least I have a memory of my dream for today. That should keep me going, right? Because at the moment I'm feeling kind of strange. Maybe it's just that I'm not used to being awake at 10 in the morning..

you know what? This quote in the gif fucked me up. I love it so much and at the same time I hate it. Please be truly happy or let someone else help you to be happy, ok?

gif is from 'leanchen-world' thanks ;3

what's a gossip?

Heyyyyyy guys ;3

So I've been out yesterday. Well, not out out, I was at friends house. There were quite a few people and I really enjoyed to be with them. To be fair, I'm not entirely sure how I ended up going to them since I haven't spoken with any of them for a long time. But anyway, it was quite nice. Apparently they've read my blog earlier which is quite... nice to know. And I got a note that my blog doesn't have enough gossip. To be fair, I don't know who to gossip about, since I don't mention any names and I don't hang out with shady people. The worst gossip I can tell you is about myself and you guys know I tell you mostly everything anyway, so that doesn't even count as a gossip.
But anyway. At that friends house we were drinking and I had a bottle of wine and I have no idea how I drank all of it by myself (cuz they were drinking vodka with mixer) and I had a few shots of tequila. Kids, don't mix those two. I genuinely wanted to die this morning. Like, not 'hangover' die, like I've been poisoned die. But yeah, hangover as well. Gosh, I cant remember if I even had one, so imagine my surprise when I woke up with it. That's a lesson for me not to mix my drinks. I knew I shouldn't but I thought 'well, it's like two shots, nothing will happen'. MHM. NOTHING. I didn't even go to work today. I called them and told them I've been throwing up all morning. Like, I wasn't even lying. I don't think they were very happy about it but hey, not that I really care if I'm not working there anymore, right? But yeah, the funny thing is, while I was walking home being all drunk in the middle of the night, I met one of the managers. I don't remember how the conversation went and I really dont want to know. I hope he's understanding... haha.

But anyway, since that 'gossiping' thing doesn't leave my mind, I've decided I have a topic to talk about.

Guys I like.

You know when someone asks me about my type, I always get confused. 'I don't know' I would say. But now I've been going through the list of guys I admired/fancied/liked. Most of them are so similar! Blond hair, blue-ish eyes, tall, older than me, has a nice smile, sometimes doesn't know what to say. Is that what you call a 'type'? I always imagined it would be more of 'has great sense of humour, is kind, loves basketball' and stuff like that. I thought it meant on the inside, but apparently, my horny side cares for their image. And you know what sucks? They all look so freaking good and then there is me, who is a little bit chubby, has a lot of acne everywhere, not to mention being hairy as a fucking gorilla (yes, I do shave quite often, but if I'd do it from toes to neck it would take me all day and ain't nobody got time for that). So, yeah, that's why I never really let myself loose around them. Like, yes, I get butterflies when I see them or if I hear their name, but I really can't imagine being in a relationship with them just because they are so attractive.
And then my second type is literally the opposite: Dark hair, dark eyes, not too tall, but taller than me, always makes me laugh and dress properly. Obviously, older than me. I just can't look at younger boys the same way I look at the older guys. Even if it's just a few days, but sorry, mate, you look like a child to me. And then again, they do look so good I feel insecure around them. But with this type of guys it's a bit different. I don't know why, to be fair, but even if I do get butterflies when I see them, I can calm them down and just be my normal self (tbf, my normal self is really shy, I don't do shy around others because I'm awesome).
But yeah, whenever someone asks me about my 'type' I'm lost. I gave you two types of guys I admire and they are different. Like, absolutely different (ok, ok, they have age and good looks in common). So how should I answer this kind of question instead of 'I don't know'? I think the last time someone asked me I said 'they have to be lithuanian' and it was such a filthy lie. I liked probably like two or three lithuanian guys in total and there is a bunch of english ones that I really fancy. It's probably their accent. I'm such a slut for accents :(

But anyway, hope nothing made you feel uncomfortable while reading this, if you have anything to say, please, don't hesitate to write a comment ^-^

gif is from 'readingbetweenthesigns' zank you ;3

Laimingi laiko neskaičiuoja (a.k.a. Happy people doesn't count the time [I think])

How can it be that it's been ~week when I've posted here?!!! Seriously...

Sorry, I legit thought it's been like 2-3 days. For the fucks sake.

Maybe I got into my routine - wake up, have breakfast, watch some movies, go to work, get back, go to bed. To be fair, I woke up like half an hour ago and it' almost five in the afternoon. I wasn't even too tired after work, it was a pleasure to see our club kind of full again. I mean, Friday sucked. We had like 30 people in total that evening? And I don't mean at the same time. Like, three would come in. Then they would leave and then another like four would come in. Friday was the worst and I finished work at 3 (no, not 'yay, early night' more like 'firetruck, I need money'). So we've finished at five on Saturday, which is a little bit better. At least I got a fair amount for the last week, since I worked three days. Ah, can't wait for the student nights to begin, I'm gonna have 4-5 days at the club. Not sure how I'm going to do it with university, but I really hope I'm going to manage - money is good and I love that job, honestly. Like, I remember saying I loved my fundraising job and I loved working at Sahar's, but this is different. I loved working there because of money. Obviously, I do love getting paid for working as a bartender, but to be fair, I have the most awesome team ever (ah, one of the bouncers is such a sweetie and he gives everyone a lift after work, so I don't need to walk home anymore <3). I love each and one of them so much, like, you have no idea. There was always at least one person that I didn't like in the team in my previous jobs.(oh, ok, I really hate one of the promos, but I don't have to work with him so I just ignore him, tehehehehe).
Anyway, one of my housemates lent her room to her friends for the weekend and I obviously had to let them in and make sure they will get in when they go out. Because, you know, I'm the only one who has keys at the moment. But despite that, her friends are so adorable. They always ask before using anything and it's like... idk, it's really sweet. I'm running out of ideas how to say 'it's fine' :| but they are leaving tomorrow, so I don't need to bother and search for synonyms. Tho as an English language student I probably should. To be fair, I was talking with my colleagues at work about my degree and I feel so much better doing it. Still not fully convinced I did the right thing, but at least I know that I chose something I have passion for and with that I'll always be able to find what to do.

But yeah, apart from this, I really have nothing to tell you. Oh, apart the fact that I obviously didn't go to my Godmothers today, because her car broke and she doesn't have money for my ticket and I really need to sort out my money for the rent first, before I could let myself to travel.

Anyway, love you lots and lots, sorry I've been so forgetful xx

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