Thursday, 23 June 2016
Wednesday, 22 June 2016
Tumblr
Oh, I had to create new tumblr because one of my emails doesn't exist anymore.
So to let you know what kind of weirdo I am when I don't write and what I like, you can check it and follow me ;)
http://supermegacutequeen.tumblr.com/
p.s. It's quite new, so don't be shocked by how little it is ;3
So to let you know what kind of weirdo I am when I don't write and what I like, you can check it and follow me ;)
http://supermegacutequeen.tumblr.com/
p.s. It's quite new, so don't be shocked by how little it is ;3
Opportunity?
I saw this interesting discussion on one of the groups in facebook today. The Mother was asking others whether she should let her 20 year-old daughter go alone to another country to work for a few months. I've seen quite a few responses about it. Most mothers said they wouldn't let their daughter go, then there were those who said it's up to her daughter because she's an adult. I, obviously, started to think from my own perspective.
I came here when I was 18. Obviously, I have relatives here, but I'm not depending on them at all. Like, I came to them for a few days just to settle everything down, but I already had a place to stay. I had some sort of savings to pay for my first month, but that was it. I desperatelly needed a job and it was literally a miracle that I got it on my second week of being here. It wasn't legal or anything, I barely got money to pay my rent, but it was some sort of an income. And that's how my few months here passed, on my own, without borrowing any money from anyone. I haven't saved up much, but the firs thing I did when I've realised I have some money? I flew back to Lithuania without knowing whether I'll have a job when I'll get back. I mean, we all know how that worked out, right? I struggled for three months, my rent was covered by my savings and by the end of third month I was broke. Then I got a job as a fundraiser which saved my poor ass. I mean, you got updates on that, because of this job I was struggling to pay my rent for this month and it was absolutely terrifying, because I had no saving whatsoever. Now I have 8 days to make another 300 to cover another rent that I'll have to pay and because that's a bare minimum they can do to me, next month it's gonna be another 500. I mean, it may not look like a big number, but trust me, to me, it is. Especially when now I have a job that gets me in for two or three days a week, which doesn't cover my expences for rent. Let's not forget about food. I mean, my main meals are pasta, eggs and pizzas for a pound, so I don't spend as much, but still. I applied for other jobs, looking for more permanent solution, though you know, it takes time to start earning money. My aunt's boyfriend has a friend in Nottingham and he offered me to move there for a few months to work in a factory, but my biggest doubt is whether I can. I have problems with my back from the past and I'm not so certain it's a good idea to test my health for a little bit of money.
But yeah, here I am, with my story of coming to uk basically all alone. I thought a lot about it today, because I tried to imagine my Mums reaction to all of it. I actually doubt She would have let me go. I'd probably still be in my small townish village, helping my Mum out or studying in Lithuania. But then again, this is such an amazing opportunity to explore how much can I do on my own, right?
Anyway, I just wanted to put my thoughts on paper/blog on this to get my mind a little bit of piece. Thanks for reading ;) Though I've noticed that my blog views got really low, I'm sorry if someone was bugged by my inconsistency on writing, I'm trying to fix it :)
Love you always x
'rose-petals-of-temptation' thank you for this gif, I absolutely adore it ;)
I came here when I was 18. Obviously, I have relatives here, but I'm not depending on them at all. Like, I came to them for a few days just to settle everything down, but I already had a place to stay. I had some sort of savings to pay for my first month, but that was it. I desperatelly needed a job and it was literally a miracle that I got it on my second week of being here. It wasn't legal or anything, I barely got money to pay my rent, but it was some sort of an income. And that's how my few months here passed, on my own, without borrowing any money from anyone. I haven't saved up much, but the firs thing I did when I've realised I have some money? I flew back to Lithuania without knowing whether I'll have a job when I'll get back. I mean, we all know how that worked out, right? I struggled for three months, my rent was covered by my savings and by the end of third month I was broke. Then I got a job as a fundraiser which saved my poor ass. I mean, you got updates on that, because of this job I was struggling to pay my rent for this month and it was absolutely terrifying, because I had no saving whatsoever. Now I have 8 days to make another 300 to cover another rent that I'll have to pay and because that's a bare minimum they can do to me, next month it's gonna be another 500. I mean, it may not look like a big number, but trust me, to me, it is. Especially when now I have a job that gets me in for two or three days a week, which doesn't cover my expences for rent. Let's not forget about food. I mean, my main meals are pasta, eggs and pizzas for a pound, so I don't spend as much, but still. I applied for other jobs, looking for more permanent solution, though you know, it takes time to start earning money. My aunt's boyfriend has a friend in Nottingham and he offered me to move there for a few months to work in a factory, but my biggest doubt is whether I can. I have problems with my back from the past and I'm not so certain it's a good idea to test my health for a little bit of money.
But yeah, here I am, with my story of coming to uk basically all alone. I thought a lot about it today, because I tried to imagine my Mums reaction to all of it. I actually doubt She would have let me go. I'd probably still be in my small townish village, helping my Mum out or studying in Lithuania. But then again, this is such an amazing opportunity to explore how much can I do on my own, right?
Anyway, I just wanted to put my thoughts on paper/blog on this to get my mind a little bit of piece. Thanks for reading ;) Though I've noticed that my blog views got really low, I'm sorry if someone was bugged by my inconsistency on writing, I'm trying to fix it :)
Love you always x
Sunday, 19 June 2016
Father's day
Today is Father's day in England.
I admit, after loosing my Mum, I rarely thought about my Dad. I mean, it is quite obvious, isn't it? I knew my Mum way more than I knew my Dad, but while She was with me, I wanted my Dad to be by my side as well. Now the priority obviously went to Mum.
Either way, I want to wish my Dad the happiest Father's day. I still miss Him every day even if I had a pleasure to know Him for only four years and 350 days. I heard stories and He was my hero while I was growing up. Yes, I had step dad's and I love as well, but you know, my Dad, the one and only, will always be the one I love the most.
My favourite memory of Him (well, the story) is when we, as a family, would go to a party or anywhere and me and Dad would fall asleep (Mum said I'd always fall asleep on his belly) on our way home and Mum would have to drive us back, even though She didn't have a license. My Dad was a Police officer, so obviously He let Her do this. Whenever someone would tell me this story, I would imagine my Mum, trying to wake Him up, without waking me up because she didn't know what exactly to do with the car. To me, my Parents always seemed like a perfect couple. Yes, I know They weren't, but I'm a child of Theirs, obviously I believe They were perfect for Each Other.
The saddest part about this is that whenever I was sad, I would talk with Him in my room and I would tell my Mum how much I wish He'd be with us. I know it broke Her heart and I do understand it now, but honestly, even without being by our side, my Dad saved me numerous of times. He was always 'there' when I needed Him, I could always count on Him when I had no one else to support me (Like, when I got mad at Mum). I still miss Him and I still think that one day, I will create a time machine to go back to the past and save Him from whatever happened back then. I know it's childish, but I'm quite afraid that if I let my childhood go, I might forget Him. And that is an opposite of what I want to do. Since my Dad was part of my early childhood, I will always carry it in me.
I love you so so much, Dad. I am sorry I don't think of You as much as I used to, but You're still a huge part of my life. I wish I could hug You and tell You how much I miss You and how much I love You.
Happy Father's Day, my Hero <3
I admit, after loosing my Mum, I rarely thought about my Dad. I mean, it is quite obvious, isn't it? I knew my Mum way more than I knew my Dad, but while She was with me, I wanted my Dad to be by my side as well. Now the priority obviously went to Mum.
Either way, I want to wish my Dad the happiest Father's day. I still miss Him every day even if I had a pleasure to know Him for only four years and 350 days. I heard stories and He was my hero while I was growing up. Yes, I had step dad's and I love as well, but you know, my Dad, the one and only, will always be the one I love the most.
My favourite memory of Him (well, the story) is when we, as a family, would go to a party or anywhere and me and Dad would fall asleep (Mum said I'd always fall asleep on his belly) on our way home and Mum would have to drive us back, even though She didn't have a license. My Dad was a Police officer, so obviously He let Her do this. Whenever someone would tell me this story, I would imagine my Mum, trying to wake Him up, without waking me up because she didn't know what exactly to do with the car. To me, my Parents always seemed like a perfect couple. Yes, I know They weren't, but I'm a child of Theirs, obviously I believe They were perfect for Each Other.
The saddest part about this is that whenever I was sad, I would talk with Him in my room and I would tell my Mum how much I wish He'd be with us. I know it broke Her heart and I do understand it now, but honestly, even without being by our side, my Dad saved me numerous of times. He was always 'there' when I needed Him, I could always count on Him when I had no one else to support me (Like, when I got mad at Mum). I still miss Him and I still think that one day, I will create a time machine to go back to the past and save Him from whatever happened back then. I know it's childish, but I'm quite afraid that if I let my childhood go, I might forget Him. And that is an opposite of what I want to do. Since my Dad was part of my early childhood, I will always carry it in me.
I love you so so much, Dad. I am sorry I don't think of You as much as I used to, but You're still a huge part of my life. I wish I could hug You and tell You how much I miss You and how much I love You.
Happy Father's Day, my Hero <3
Friday, 17 June 2016
Long story short
Helloouuuu ;3
So I had problems to sleep again. Like, I went to sleep around 1 am, but literally couldn't find comfortable position until like 4 in the morning. Soo troublesome. That's why I've been yawning all morning (ok, I woke up at noon, but for me it's morning, because I was just awaken). And I'm still yawning - not a good sign. I'm gonna have to start my shift in three hours, I need to be as energized as possible. Ah, I'm so excited for this new job!
Plus, yesterday was really really fun. We met up at Costa and had a coffee and then went for a walk around Leicester. It was sooooo coooooooool. Like, really really cool. And on our way back to the city centre it started raining, so it was even more fun. You guys know how much I love rain, we just walked as if nothing was happening until we reached town and decided that we're kind of hungry. So yeah, wet as God knows what we went to spoons and spent there another hour. To be fair, if I counted correctly, we spent around five hours together. It didn't seem that long, if not the bus that he had to take to get home, I'd have taken him for another walk. Though he did walk me home which was pretty sweet. So, yeah, I had a great day yesterday. Like, even if I got home shivering because of how I got absolutely rained over, then got dry at the pub and then I had to walk home. But yeah, cup of warm tea, blankets all over me and I got better. I really hope my shoes didn't get ruined, I haven't checked yet.
I had to wash my hair today because it was so ichy from the rain! I always have that problem, anyone else? Maybe that's why I couldn't sleep. Oh well. Maybe I was just too excited.
Ok, to be fair, I have nothing else to tell you guys. I should go and do my nails so they wouldn't look that bad. I should find what to wear since I doubt I actually have something propriate. Oh well, something will have to do. Ah, I'm so happy I got this job. The other one called yesterday, asking if I want to come over, but I was like naaah. I like being waitress. I love talking/meeting new people, I love having some kind of difference for my everyday life. Yes, when I was working as a fundraiser, I met loads of new people, but our conversation always consisted of my pitching, so that was montony which you guys know, I hate.
Anyway, talk to you later, love you x
gif from 'dontmesswiththeleprechaun' thanks x
Thursday, 16 June 2016
So, today's plan is/was....
Hi guys :)
I didn't write it here yesterday, but I got a call for a job yesterday :) I'm starting on Friday and I'm so happy about it! Maybe I won't be needing to be in a deep dept to my auntie. Maybe just a little bit. Anyway, let's not talk about money problems, that always gets me into a bad mood. Let's talk about the fact that I actually managed to nail another job in such a short time. I love it so much ^-^ though now I have a problem of a need to have a place to stay until September or pay more to live in our new house (which would be pretty awesome). I need to really think about it and talk with my mates about it.
I planned to spend my day doing my nails and toes, but instead, I'm hanging out with my laptop because I was asked by a really cute boy to meet up this evening. Like, Tinder, seriously. I am not 100% sure if it's a date or just like 'hang out' thing, so I'm not saying anything yet. He looks cute, so I thought - why not, right? What can go wrong? *totally over thinking every stupid possibility* Right, we're going to be in a public place, there is nothing to be afraid of ;3
Ok, so I'm absolutely inlove with Iwan Rheon song 'Bang Bang' - it was on repeat all evening yesterday and on repeat today. It makes me feel so good and so relaxed, I can't believe I haven't listened of it before. I don't really like other of his songs, because we all know how I avoid listening to sad songs, but this one is just magical. Maybe because I have a celebrity crush on Rheon. So now it's him AND James McAvoy. Nice. Who's next?
I realised yesterday that I miss my family very very much. My cousin called me yesterday just to literally chat about anything stupid. I miss her so much it really hurts. And then I heard my aunties voice as well, so then I've realised I haven't talked with her in a while as well. Like, seriously, we've grown so far from each other. I mean, there is nothing much to talk about from my side, since all I was doing for the last week is just staring at my laptop screen, but still. Obviously, their phone and wi-fi is shit, so we often get disconnected, but my cousin was using our wi-fi and it was absolutely fine. Maybe it's just their phone. Oh well, not that we try to talk every day.
As for missing someone, I really miss all of my friends. The ones in Lithuania, the ones that are not in Leicester... I mean, I do talk with them from time to time, but it's not the same as it was - hanging around every day, or at least few times a week. I was looking at the pictures on my wall and it brought a smile on my face just by thinking about the good times we had. Is it bad that I want more friends so I could be able to go and hang out with them whenever I want to? Like, uni friends are all gone home, so bye them, my lithuanian friends moved out (I'm not sure about one of them, tho, he snapchated me yesterday and I was surprised because I am pretty sure he hates me), so... yeah, kind of alone. There are my ex-colleagues, but then again, they are working all day, I know how tiring the job is, so I can't bother them either. I mean, I'm kind of ok at the moment to be alone, it's not that I don't have anyone to talk to. I have my flatmate whom I went to the club with. We talk from time to time, so it's not like I'm silent all day.
Anyway, I'm really struggling to find something positive to write about, so here it goes - I changed my sheets and I slept like a baby tonight. I'm not sure how's it going to be tonight, since they're not fresh fresh anymore, but well, you know how it is. I also hand-washed Brad's t-shirt, so my cuddling pillow is fresh as well. I mean, you know me guys, I love being happy about small things, so this makes me really really happy. Just as my shaved legs! They are still pretty smooth, so I can't stop staring at them. I know, it's strange, but I'm so proud of myself ;3
but yeah, enough for today, love you all x
so this gif is from 'a-thousand-shining-stars' and let me tell you, if it wasn't for a cute ghosty, I'd be creeped out by those words. But it's cute, so thanks ;33
I didn't write it here yesterday, but I got a call for a job yesterday :) I'm starting on Friday and I'm so happy about it! Maybe I won't be needing to be in a deep dept to my auntie. Maybe just a little bit. Anyway, let's not talk about money problems, that always gets me into a bad mood. Let's talk about the fact that I actually managed to nail another job in such a short time. I love it so much ^-^ though now I have a problem of a need to have a place to stay until September or pay more to live in our new house (which would be pretty awesome). I need to really think about it and talk with my mates about it.
I planned to spend my day doing my nails and toes, but instead, I'm hanging out with my laptop because I was asked by a really cute boy to meet up this evening. Like, Tinder, seriously. I am not 100% sure if it's a date or just like 'hang out' thing, so I'm not saying anything yet. He looks cute, so I thought - why not, right? What can go wrong? *totally over thinking every stupid possibility* Right, we're going to be in a public place, there is nothing to be afraid of ;3
Ok, so I'm absolutely inlove with Iwan Rheon song 'Bang Bang' - it was on repeat all evening yesterday and on repeat today. It makes me feel so good and so relaxed, I can't believe I haven't listened of it before. I don't really like other of his songs, because we all know how I avoid listening to sad songs, but this one is just magical. Maybe because I have a celebrity crush on Rheon. So now it's him AND James McAvoy. Nice. Who's next?
I realised yesterday that I miss my family very very much. My cousin called me yesterday just to literally chat about anything stupid. I miss her so much it really hurts. And then I heard my aunties voice as well, so then I've realised I haven't talked with her in a while as well. Like, seriously, we've grown so far from each other. I mean, there is nothing much to talk about from my side, since all I was doing for the last week is just staring at my laptop screen, but still. Obviously, their phone and wi-fi is shit, so we often get disconnected, but my cousin was using our wi-fi and it was absolutely fine. Maybe it's just their phone. Oh well, not that we try to talk every day.
As for missing someone, I really miss all of my friends. The ones in Lithuania, the ones that are not in Leicester... I mean, I do talk with them from time to time, but it's not the same as it was - hanging around every day, or at least few times a week. I was looking at the pictures on my wall and it brought a smile on my face just by thinking about the good times we had. Is it bad that I want more friends so I could be able to go and hang out with them whenever I want to? Like, uni friends are all gone home, so bye them, my lithuanian friends moved out (I'm not sure about one of them, tho, he snapchated me yesterday and I was surprised because I am pretty sure he hates me), so... yeah, kind of alone. There are my ex-colleagues, but then again, they are working all day, I know how tiring the job is, so I can't bother them either. I mean, I'm kind of ok at the moment to be alone, it's not that I don't have anyone to talk to. I have my flatmate whom I went to the club with. We talk from time to time, so it's not like I'm silent all day.
Anyway, I'm really struggling to find something positive to write about, so here it goes - I changed my sheets and I slept like a baby tonight. I'm not sure how's it going to be tonight, since they're not fresh fresh anymore, but well, you know how it is. I also hand-washed Brad's t-shirt, so my cuddling pillow is fresh as well. I mean, you know me guys, I love being happy about small things, so this makes me really really happy. Just as my shaved legs! They are still pretty smooth, so I can't stop staring at them. I know, it's strange, but I'm so proud of myself ;3
but yeah, enough for today, love you all x
Wednesday, 15 June 2016
SO, this.
I really started to wonder who comes here and actually reads what I'm writing here apart like three ppl that I know :|
Anyway, how's your day going? Because mine is fine ^-^
So, it's Wednesday now and I still haven't got a call from any places that I've applied for a job. That's fine, I can wait for a little bit. Like, very little bit.
At least I'm into Gossip girl and Disney movies now. Literally, I watched Lilo & Stitch, both movies, then I watched a few episodes of Gossip girl, replied to one of my rpg's (sorry, Tumblr is just too much effort), shaved my legs....ok, I haven't done anything really smart, but at least I got rid of my leg hair. They were bothering me. I really wanna go out now, to show everyone my shaved legs, but I have no one to go wiiiith!
I just remembered that I asked one of my guys when is he in town, so apparently, they might come back for next weekend. I bet they're gonna be in shock when I'll tell them I'm not drinking anymore.
Did I tell you guys? I've decided to quit drinking. It doesn't lead to anywhere good. Like, I become reckless and stupid and I don't like that. I mean, yeah, obviously, that's the point, but then again, last Friday night I did a stupid thing and I'm still regretting it. I'm still a virgin, don't worry, it was just a snapchat. Anyway, yeah, I don't feel great about it and it kind of grossed me out. I should not be acting that way at all. So I'm not drinking anymore. That's it. Tea is my bff from now on. Plus, I won't need to spend my money in club, if I ever get back there.
About my financial state (the boring part, if you don't want to read about it, just skip this paragraph) - I am sooooooooooooooooooo broke. Literally, if I won't buy anything for another month, I still have to somehow get 350 pounds for my other rent. Have no idea where to get that since I'm not working. I talked with one of my aunts about it, she said she might ask her boyfriend to help out, but I hate to ask them. I know it's nothing to him, but to be fair, they told me not to come here, in uk, in the first place. So admitting that I'm not able to live here on my own is a bit hard. Even though I do admit it. I still have a week and a half, don't I?
I've met my ex-colleagues yesterday. They looked glad to see me and we talked for a bit (cuz it was raining soooooooo heavily) and then I went home. I saw them and I was so glad I'm not working there anymore. Like, they were standing outside until it was an absolute piss. And two of them didn't even make a sale that day, so... what's the point? At least now I can catch up with my tv-shows and movies and sleep. Seriously, my sleep is everything now! I go to bed whenever I want to (I mean sleep, I'm in my bed all day) I wake up whenever I want to... perfect. I even downloaded Tinder again! Stupid, I know. I mean, I want to start dating, or meeting new people, but as for now, I don't know how. Any ideas how to meet new friends? Comment, please and thank you ;3
anyway, my pizza should be done by now, talk to you later my dears xx
pizza is love, pizza is life, right, 'ladydighiaccio'? Thanks for this gif. Like, literally, who needs a boyfriend when you can have pizza :3
Anyway, how's your day going? Because mine is fine ^-^
So, it's Wednesday now and I still haven't got a call from any places that I've applied for a job. That's fine, I can wait for a little bit. Like, very little bit.
At least I'm into Gossip girl and Disney movies now. Literally, I watched Lilo & Stitch, both movies, then I watched a few episodes of Gossip girl, replied to one of my rpg's (sorry, Tumblr is just too much effort), shaved my legs....ok, I haven't done anything really smart, but at least I got rid of my leg hair. They were bothering me. I really wanna go out now, to show everyone my shaved legs, but I have no one to go wiiiith!
I just remembered that I asked one of my guys when is he in town, so apparently, they might come back for next weekend. I bet they're gonna be in shock when I'll tell them I'm not drinking anymore.
Did I tell you guys? I've decided to quit drinking. It doesn't lead to anywhere good. Like, I become reckless and stupid and I don't like that. I mean, yeah, obviously, that's the point, but then again, last Friday night I did a stupid thing and I'm still regretting it. I'm still a virgin, don't worry, it was just a snapchat. Anyway, yeah, I don't feel great about it and it kind of grossed me out. I should not be acting that way at all. So I'm not drinking anymore. That's it. Tea is my bff from now on. Plus, I won't need to spend my money in club, if I ever get back there.
About my financial state (the boring part, if you don't want to read about it, just skip this paragraph) - I am sooooooooooooooooooo broke. Literally, if I won't buy anything for another month, I still have to somehow get 350 pounds for my other rent. Have no idea where to get that since I'm not working. I talked with one of my aunts about it, she said she might ask her boyfriend to help out, but I hate to ask them. I know it's nothing to him, but to be fair, they told me not to come here, in uk, in the first place. So admitting that I'm not able to live here on my own is a bit hard. Even though I do admit it. I still have a week and a half, don't I?
I've met my ex-colleagues yesterday. They looked glad to see me and we talked for a bit (cuz it was raining soooooooo heavily) and then I went home. I saw them and I was so glad I'm not working there anymore. Like, they were standing outside until it was an absolute piss. And two of them didn't even make a sale that day, so... what's the point? At least now I can catch up with my tv-shows and movies and sleep. Seriously, my sleep is everything now! I go to bed whenever I want to (I mean sleep, I'm in my bed all day) I wake up whenever I want to... perfect. I even downloaded Tinder again! Stupid, I know. I mean, I want to start dating, or meeting new people, but as for now, I don't know how. Any ideas how to meet new friends? Comment, please and thank you ;3
anyway, my pizza should be done by now, talk to you later my dears xx
Tuesday, 14 June 2016
Happy Birthday to my Girls!
Hi everyone!
Today is kind of a Special day for me. Well, ok, not for me. For my Childhood friend. She is turning 19 today. I wish I could be there to celebrate with her! I mean, I love that girl so freaking much it hurts not to be able to be there for her. Though I do know she won't be bored without me. She has so many friends (someone is jealous) and we barely speak anymore, but she'll always be that one special friend whom I'm going to love forever. I know she reads my blog as well, so I'm taking my opportunity to wish Her a Happy Happy birthday! The last birthday that has -teen in their name. That's it, after nineteen, we will have to become adults. I know, boring, but what can we do... So yeah, Happy Birthday, My Sunshine! ;3
And two days before it was my Sister's Birthday! She's 3 now!!! God I can't believe how quickly the time passes. I called her to wish happy birthday and she replied that she got flowers and she doesn't have time to talk because she is searching for our cat because she misses our cat. And that's how much we've talked. Although, I saw pictures from her birthday, I literally cried seeing everybody together there. I wish I could have been there at least through the camera, but naah, my brother broke their computer and phones doesn't really do much. So yeah, I skipped my Sister's birthday as well. But she was so adorable in the pictures, I'm totally printing them off when I'll have money to do so ;3
Yeah, a lot of birthdays. I'm so happy for them ^-^
'jonn1fan' haha, I love it ;3 thanks for sharing ;)
Today is kind of a Special day for me. Well, ok, not for me. For my Childhood friend. She is turning 19 today. I wish I could be there to celebrate with her! I mean, I love that girl so freaking much it hurts not to be able to be there for her. Though I do know she won't be bored without me. She has so many friends (someone is jealous) and we barely speak anymore, but she'll always be that one special friend whom I'm going to love forever. I know she reads my blog as well, so I'm taking my opportunity to wish Her a Happy Happy birthday! The last birthday that has -teen in their name. That's it, after nineteen, we will have to become adults. I know, boring, but what can we do... So yeah, Happy Birthday, My Sunshine! ;3
And two days before it was my Sister's Birthday! She's 3 now!!! God I can't believe how quickly the time passes. I called her to wish happy birthday and she replied that she got flowers and she doesn't have time to talk because she is searching for our cat because she misses our cat. And that's how much we've talked. Although, I saw pictures from her birthday, I literally cried seeing everybody together there. I wish I could have been there at least through the camera, but naah, my brother broke their computer and phones doesn't really do much. So yeah, I skipped my Sister's birthday as well. But she was so adorable in the pictures, I'm totally printing them off when I'll have money to do so ;3
Yeah, a lot of birthdays. I'm so happy for them ^-^
Friday, 10 June 2016
Keep calm and carry on
what was the last thing I talked about?
Yeah, I know. I haven't been on my blog for ages now. To be fair, I don't have anything interesting to tell you. Well, maybe, except for the part that I quit my job yesterday. Not that I became a millionaire or anything, no. I'm still crying poor, but at least I don't do something that kills me inside. I mean, saving children is a good thing, but we all know how bad me and monotony is. I can do the same thing for a month, for two, maybe, but then it starts to kill me. And not even slowly, it kills me fast. Last week at work was absolutely terrible. I didn't want to smile, I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to do anything. Just repeating and repeating the same thing, listening to the same answers day after day... I can't do that.
I met wonderful people while working there. I mean, at least I thought so. I'm not trashing or anything, they are nice, when they want to be. It's just I'm too naive to be around someone who knows how to lure people into something. I don't want to become someone who would use other people to get what I want.
Anyway, let's not talk about it anymore. That's my past. Now fingers crossed a few places I applied to replies.
Oh, it was so funny yesterday! It made me chuckle for the rest of the day. I woke up from a nap and went to the kitchen where one of my flatmates was washing her dishes. And her face got so confused when she saw me and she started mumbling 'Sorry, I couldn't reach that' or something like that and then I noticed she was using my sponge (because it has a handle on it, I'm so inlove with it). Oh my it made me giggle so much. Obviously I told her not to worry about it, it's not like she stole my food or something (I'm too poor to share food, you know). But her face... oh my God you guys should have seen it. So adorable ;3
But yeah, mostly I spent my day playing games yesterday. Same today. Well, today I'm going out with another flatmate and I'm really looking forward to it. I haven't hung out with her in ages. Oh, well, except the day before yesterday when I got too drunk and can barely remember what happened, but that's a story I'm gonna keep for myself. All you need to know is that it was a fun day with a lot of tanning and drinking. That's it. Let's get back to today's evening. I have no idea what to wear. I kind of want to stand out but then again, it's not like me to do it. Dress/skirt/shorts? It will obviously depend on the weather, but I like to plan for it. At least I know what I'm going to do for my make-up. God I finally got a hang of it, I'm so proud of myself.
I thought about going to my aunts again, this time for a bit longer time, but I really can't afford buying myself tickets atm. She can't afford them as well because she's going back to Lithuania in a few days. I thought about asking my cousin to buy me tickets, but couldn't go around doing it. I hate, absolutely hate, asking ppl for money. I should be able to save up for myself.
I wish I could go back to Lithuania for a week or so. Not because I need to run away from everything here (that would be good as well) but because I don't talk with my family anymore. Like, whenever I try to call, they're busy, whenever they called me, I was busy or already asleep. My sister told me she misses me so much. My brother keeps talking that when I'm going to come back, we're going to swim across the river in our hometown. Whenever they talk about me getting back and how much they actually missed me it makes me want to cry my eyes out. I miss them so much it hurts even to think about it. My aunt somehow decided that I'm going to come back in August, so now everyone expects me to get back then. I would, I really would, but I just recieved an email saying there is another payment in August for my new house in which I won't even live by then. Yeah, if I could afford travelling, I'd be packing my bags right now. All of my friends are gone from Leicester now, so I can't even go to the guys or ask them to come over or annoy my girls with my 'let's get out' texts. Well, I can, it's just I know they're not here.
OMG OMG OMG IT'S A THUNDER! it's like the first time I saw it in England. Aw, so excited! It sounded so terrible ;ooo but I like it. Somehow, this weather calms me down. That pouring rain and the lightning... Sometimes I get scared of it. Sometimes I could spend hours looking through the window to it.
Honestly, sometimes I'm afraid of everything and sometimes I'm the bravest person I know. Take dogs, for example. I mean, everyone knows how much I don't like dogs. Like, literally, I can't move whenever I see them coming over, but then again, my Godmother had a dog and I somehow manage to be calm around it. Sometimes I'm afraid of the dark as well. And sometimes I make my room as dark as possible because I feel safer that way.
The most terrible fear that I have is being alone. I'm so afraid of being left alone, but then again, there are moments when I just don't want to see anyone. I even had times when I asked people to leave because I had to be alone. It's not just recent, I had that from when I was little. I remember asking my friends to leave and then we got into a word fight of why I'm so rude. I'm not rude, I'm sorry. It's just I need my alone time sometimes. I'm strange, I know.
Ok, that was deep, stop it. I've bought a new cup a few days ago. It says 'I'm the boss around here'. It's soooo cool guys! And coffee is tasty when I drink from it. I mean, I don't have a cup that makes it especially not tasty, but we all have our favourite cups for drinks, right? Like, my 'Keep calm and carry on' is perfect for tea. The one with the dog is always for the guests or to warm milk up. I have a glassy one which is perfect to drink alcohol from (since it's with a straw). Then I have my blue one which is perfect when I want to drink juice. See? I have a cup for everything.
Guys, I was wondering if you know more bands similar to Patd, Fob, arctic monkeys...? I love their songs so much but listening them daily on repeat makes me a little bit annoyed. Please comment anywhere if you know any other band, ok? ;3
I'm gonna go now, I need to have some shower time for myself (I have my hair mask on my hair all day, so I've become quite greasy).
Love you guys so much x
I promise to try to be more regulary active xx
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Yeah, I know. I haven't been on my blog for ages now. To be fair, I don't have anything interesting to tell you. Well, maybe, except for the part that I quit my job yesterday. Not that I became a millionaire or anything, no. I'm still crying poor, but at least I don't do something that kills me inside. I mean, saving children is a good thing, but we all know how bad me and monotony is. I can do the same thing for a month, for two, maybe, but then it starts to kill me. And not even slowly, it kills me fast. Last week at work was absolutely terrible. I didn't want to smile, I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to do anything. Just repeating and repeating the same thing, listening to the same answers day after day... I can't do that.
I met wonderful people while working there. I mean, at least I thought so. I'm not trashing or anything, they are nice, when they want to be. It's just I'm too naive to be around someone who knows how to lure people into something. I don't want to become someone who would use other people to get what I want.
Anyway, let's not talk about it anymore. That's my past. Now fingers crossed a few places I applied to replies.
Oh, it was so funny yesterday! It made me chuckle for the rest of the day. I woke up from a nap and went to the kitchen where one of my flatmates was washing her dishes. And her face got so confused when she saw me and she started mumbling 'Sorry, I couldn't reach that' or something like that and then I noticed she was using my sponge (because it has a handle on it, I'm so inlove with it). Oh my it made me giggle so much. Obviously I told her not to worry about it, it's not like she stole my food or something (I'm too poor to share food, you know). But her face... oh my God you guys should have seen it. So adorable ;3
But yeah, mostly I spent my day playing games yesterday. Same today. Well, today I'm going out with another flatmate and I'm really looking forward to it. I haven't hung out with her in ages. Oh, well, except the day before yesterday when I got too drunk and can barely remember what happened, but that's a story I'm gonna keep for myself. All you need to know is that it was a fun day with a lot of tanning and drinking. That's it. Let's get back to today's evening. I have no idea what to wear. I kind of want to stand out but then again, it's not like me to do it. Dress/skirt/shorts? It will obviously depend on the weather, but I like to plan for it. At least I know what I'm going to do for my make-up. God I finally got a hang of it, I'm so proud of myself.
I thought about going to my aunts again, this time for a bit longer time, but I really can't afford buying myself tickets atm. She can't afford them as well because she's going back to Lithuania in a few days. I thought about asking my cousin to buy me tickets, but couldn't go around doing it. I hate, absolutely hate, asking ppl for money. I should be able to save up for myself.
I wish I could go back to Lithuania for a week or so. Not because I need to run away from everything here (that would be good as well) but because I don't talk with my family anymore. Like, whenever I try to call, they're busy, whenever they called me, I was busy or already asleep. My sister told me she misses me so much. My brother keeps talking that when I'm going to come back, we're going to swim across the river in our hometown. Whenever they talk about me getting back and how much they actually missed me it makes me want to cry my eyes out. I miss them so much it hurts even to think about it. My aunt somehow decided that I'm going to come back in August, so now everyone expects me to get back then. I would, I really would, but I just recieved an email saying there is another payment in August for my new house in which I won't even live by then. Yeah, if I could afford travelling, I'd be packing my bags right now. All of my friends are gone from Leicester now, so I can't even go to the guys or ask them to come over or annoy my girls with my 'let's get out' texts. Well, I can, it's just I know they're not here.
OMG OMG OMG IT'S A THUNDER! it's like the first time I saw it in England. Aw, so excited! It sounded so terrible ;ooo but I like it. Somehow, this weather calms me down. That pouring rain and the lightning... Sometimes I get scared of it. Sometimes I could spend hours looking through the window to it.
Honestly, sometimes I'm afraid of everything and sometimes I'm the bravest person I know. Take dogs, for example. I mean, everyone knows how much I don't like dogs. Like, literally, I can't move whenever I see them coming over, but then again, my Godmother had a dog and I somehow manage to be calm around it. Sometimes I'm afraid of the dark as well. And sometimes I make my room as dark as possible because I feel safer that way.
The most terrible fear that I have is being alone. I'm so afraid of being left alone, but then again, there are moments when I just don't want to see anyone. I even had times when I asked people to leave because I had to be alone. It's not just recent, I had that from when I was little. I remember asking my friends to leave and then we got into a word fight of why I'm so rude. I'm not rude, I'm sorry. It's just I need my alone time sometimes. I'm strange, I know.
Ok, that was deep, stop it. I've bought a new cup a few days ago. It says 'I'm the boss around here'. It's soooo cool guys! And coffee is tasty when I drink from it. I mean, I don't have a cup that makes it especially not tasty, but we all have our favourite cups for drinks, right? Like, my 'Keep calm and carry on' is perfect for tea. The one with the dog is always for the guests or to warm milk up. I have a glassy one which is perfect to drink alcohol from (since it's with a straw). Then I have my blue one which is perfect when I want to drink juice. See? I have a cup for everything.
Guys, I was wondering if you know more bands similar to Patd, Fob, arctic monkeys...? I love their songs so much but listening them daily on repeat makes me a little bit annoyed. Please comment anywhere if you know any other band, ok? ;3
I'm gonna go now, I need to have some shower time for myself (I have my hair mask on my hair all day, so I've become quite greasy).
Love you guys so much x
I promise to try to be more regulary active xx
Wednesday, 1 June 2016
Summertime
Oh, sugar, it's actually summer!
No, honestly, it's called summer, but it's raining outside. Fun times. I should get used to it, right? Anyway, yeah, it's summer. it's National Children's day in Lithuania and I really really want to wish a happy day to my sister and my brother, but I'm pretty sure they are still asleep. And then I'll probably won't be back from work until very very late, because... because yeah, we have a crew night which will include sports and shit like that. To be honest, yes, I'm starting my 30 squat challenge again with some girls in the office but I really rather do it alone. I hate when people see me sweat. And I do sweat a lot, so basically I'm gonna end up with red cheeks and smelly blouse or something. They actually want to do it in the morning, so I'd have to bear with it all day. Naah, man, I'd rather do it in the evening. That way I won't need to worry about being unattractive, right? Right.
Anyway, we've decided to eat healthier as well, so I'm eating porridge in the morning, then I have my lunch as pasta wit baby carrots and peas and then for dinner I plan to have a few sandwiches with cucumber and tea. That's it. Maybe a banana, I'm not sure about that. But yeah, apparently it's summer already and I want to look good by the time it's actually sunny. If it will ever be like that.
Either way, I need to have my gym kit ready and I have no idea what to put in it. I mean, literally, I have one pair of 'trainers', I don't really have a nice training outfit and urgh... yeah, I don't know. I don't want to look stupid. Those standards, am I right?
And I need to dry my shoes, since I washed them yesterday. Pretty sure I'm gonna end their existence, but I have to try because they are all still very very wet. I'll probably need to wash them again tonight, so fun times for me, right?
So much to do, so little time. I have to go now or I'll be late for work (even though they said I cant be late since I'm self employed, but I can see how everyone looks at you when you're late, so, no thanks.)
love you guys x
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' like, omgomg this kitty is so cute I want to take it and cuddle with it and never ever let go ;33 I'd obviously rather do that with my own cat, but you know. Anyway, thanks for sharing this gif ;3
p.s. yes, my blog will have a lot of cat gifs, because they are so freaking adorable!
No, honestly, it's called summer, but it's raining outside. Fun times. I should get used to it, right? Anyway, yeah, it's summer. it's National Children's day in Lithuania and I really really want to wish a happy day to my sister and my brother, but I'm pretty sure they are still asleep. And then I'll probably won't be back from work until very very late, because... because yeah, we have a crew night which will include sports and shit like that. To be honest, yes, I'm starting my 30 squat challenge again with some girls in the office but I really rather do it alone. I hate when people see me sweat. And I do sweat a lot, so basically I'm gonna end up with red cheeks and smelly blouse or something. They actually want to do it in the morning, so I'd have to bear with it all day. Naah, man, I'd rather do it in the evening. That way I won't need to worry about being unattractive, right? Right.
Anyway, we've decided to eat healthier as well, so I'm eating porridge in the morning, then I have my lunch as pasta wit baby carrots and peas and then for dinner I plan to have a few sandwiches with cucumber and tea. That's it. Maybe a banana, I'm not sure about that. But yeah, apparently it's summer already and I want to look good by the time it's actually sunny. If it will ever be like that.
Either way, I need to have my gym kit ready and I have no idea what to put in it. I mean, literally, I have one pair of 'trainers', I don't really have a nice training outfit and urgh... yeah, I don't know. I don't want to look stupid. Those standards, am I right?
And I need to dry my shoes, since I washed them yesterday. Pretty sure I'm gonna end their existence, but I have to try because they are all still very very wet. I'll probably need to wash them again tonight, so fun times for me, right?
So much to do, so little time. I have to go now or I'll be late for work (even though they said I cant be late since I'm self employed, but I can see how everyone looks at you when you're late, so, no thanks.)
love you guys x
p.s. yes, my blog will have a lot of cat gifs, because they are so freaking adorable!